so far this is my life

dick

Ur a dick and I'm glad we don't talk anymore. I'm glad you are not in my life. You were awful, and I'm glad you hate me. I'm glad I don't have to see you anymore. I don't have to hear your voice. I don't have to hear you laugh. I don't have to see you smile. I don't have to see your eyes. I don't have to see your face. I don't want to see your hair. I don't want to see your face pop up on my phone. I don't want to see your name on my screen. I don't want to see your pictures on my phone. I don't want to have memories of you. I don't want to love you anymore. I don't want to wanna text you. I don't want to want to see you. I don't want to be stuck on you. You're a dick and you will always be a dick. I may have bipolar but I was a good person, and you ruined me. I gave you my all, and you ruined me. You were never a good thing for me, and I thought. I thought you would've changed. I thought we would've lasted for years. I thought you loved me back. I thought we were unconditional love. I thought we were soulmates. I was wrong. I was so wrong, and it kills me. It kills me when I hear your name. It kills me when I see your name. It kills me when I think of you. It kills me to still love you, and I wish I didn't. I don't want to love you anymore. But you're a big part of me, and that shit is attached to me. I'm sorry. I hate you, and I'm sorry. I love you, and I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that I wasn't good enough for you to treat right. I'm sorry I wasn't your biggest priority. I'm sorry you couldn't love me the right way. I'm sorry that I just simply wasn't enough for you. Bur, you were enough for me. You were enough to be my biggest priority. You were enough for me to love unconditionally no matter what had happened. You were enough for me to just simply smile. But it's okay. Someday. Someone else. Will find me attractive in ways you didn't. Someone will love me in the ways that you couldn't. Someday, someone will find me and think "damn I'm the luckiest person alive." Someday someone will treat me like I treat them. Someday, someone will love me like how I loved you. Someday..it'll be better. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for you and that you were good enough for me.

I hope life gets better for you, my love, I hope you find someone you can unconditionally love and put first. Maybe you'll love them the way I wish you loved me. I love you. I always will. But you won't. And that's okay.

Stay safe