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update on mitzu

So idk if she'll see this. Probs not, but oh well. So the thing with her is yea SOMEDAYS she's a good friend. Otherwise, she low-key sucks. Let me tell you why. So when I go to invite her out she'll claim to talk to her dad and then everything's good, but when it comes close to the date we're supposed to hang out she switches on me and tells me she had to cancel cus something came up. I understand if something really did come up. I get that. But what she does is she'll blow me off for other friends, and she'll do the same things me and her were planning to do, or she'd do something more fun, ig? And then post it on her story, not even thinking to ask if I'd like to join or anything. Just straight-up blows me off, and then doesn't even bother asking if I'd like to join. We don't hang out bc of her. I've tried to hang out with her several times, and she's always baled on me, so I gave up on asking to hang out. There's no point in trying when it's just one-sided. And did you know she still never said happy birthday to me or gave me a gift like she kept claiming she was going to do? Yea, I think that's a little shity. When it came to my actual birthday, she came into class, me and my friend and I were talking, and he said he didn't realize it was my birthday, and I laughed bc okay. And mitzu comes in automatically complaining about how she was having a panic attack the night before, and she was apologizing to him about it, and I understand all of that. Trust me, I do. But then when they were done talking our friend Tye said happy birthday to me and ik she can hear us so I said thank you and we looked at her and she ignored it. So yk what I did? My petty ass made a comment that it's my birthday! And all she could muster was that "I'm so sorry I didn't think abt you while I was having a panic attack " and this is what I said "idrc that yiu had a panic attack LAST NIGHT. I get it. we all have our personal issues, but do you see me coming into class ignoring you even when I was having a rough night? No? Didn't think so. I still got you gifts even when I was angry. I still got you a birthday gift and a valentines gift. You can't even simply text me happy birthday?" She rolled her eyes at me. And just kept making excuses about it all. And I totally understand a panic attack. I get them a lot, but I still tell my people happy birthday. I still get them something if I say I'm getting something I do it. I don't make excuses and continue to make excuses. Which is what she did. And so it caused a rift between us bc like come on? You expect me to apologize to your sorry ass when this entire time our friendship was one-sided? I think not. We did get over it sorta. Mainly when her and her bf broke up (karma..I think so), and so I did end up asking if she was okay and she was rude about it but got over it. "Don't act like we're friends when you were just mad at me like 2 days ago." That was what she told me. My response "yea, I'm still mad at you, but that doesn't mean I don't give a shit about you." And so then she sorta told me what happened and that she was okay and then we stopped talking. And we barely talk now. But I mean, idk. I don't miss her bc like we never hung out, really, and so like why miss someone you don't hang out with? Anywho, that's my long-awaited mitzu update, lol

See you later, lovelys <3 XOXO