so far this is my life

family dramas

    SOOO I'm back, and I've got more to tell, lol. Anyways, um, so the 4th of July happened, lol.

if you don't know what the 4th of July is, then look it up because i can't help you. sorry, but im not the greatest at explaining things? idk, but anyways, onto the miniture story-ish

I was invited by this girl, let's call her becky, she went with her to the 4th of july at our local park. and i told her that i would think about it because i personally dont really care to go to the park but then a few hours later my sisters are talking and one of them asks me to talk to our parents about letting my younger sister (Jorja) go to the park with me and to see if our older sister (Cj) could take us to this park, I ended up talking to my mom and i explained that it wasnt my idea and the orignal thing was that i was originally invited by becky and friends to come to the park. I explained that i necessarily did not want to go, but i would if i had to. eventually my mom says sure and then i let my older sister know about it and my mom was resposible to talk to our dad which when he woke up, he automatically said no- and now maybe you're wondering why hed say no well lovely's the reasons for that is because in the care of my older sister. Jorja would go out and drink and do shit she knows for a fact she's not supposed to do, and Cj was letting her and was promoting it for it to happen more often, then it should. Now, this would go on every time they were together alone, and they finally got caught. Now i never say anything until it's brought up to me bc i don't typically care. Anyways, Jorja's bio mom can see where Jorja goes pretty much at all times, and idk what was going through her mind to think she was going to get away with this, but yea. Anyways her and cj are texting back and forth, trying to come up with a plan as to what they are going to say when our parents talk to them about all of this. Jorja ends up going home and on Thursday night she ends up coming to my dad's house at like 4 in the morning bc her and her mother got into a fight and yea and so then everyone saw the conversations in between Jorja and Cj and Cj keeps denying it and its been about 3 months now and Jorja is grounded from going anywhere with Cj and Cj can't be at the house without an adult Im aloud to go anywhere but i don't get into shit so yea. Anyways to the main point I was allowed to go to the park, but Cj had made it literally impossible to have any sort of fun while i was there until Becky came over finally now mind you, she was my half step cousin that i have officially disowned and I'll explain later. Jorja was not allowed to go to the park which hurt her feelings and she was crying in her room about it (she got over it) anyways i was trying to tell Cj but she didn't check her phone till she got to my house which is when my mom told her about Jorja not being able to go which Cj made a fuss about which i thought was pathetic and she kept repeating the same shit as in "it's not fair Jorja has to stay home she just wants to see the fireworks and i don't want there to be a fight or anything in between all of us and blah blah blah blah" and she kept going on and on about how she didn't want Jorja to be mad at her and was making it look like it was my fault she couldn't go and that if she couldn't go then i shouldn't be able to go. My mom ended up telling her that she kept repeating what she was saying and it was annoying and there was not going to be a fight and it was Jorja's fault she made this mistake and she needs to deal with it and if she didn't want to take me then my mom would take me and cj kept saying she would take me and then the entire time we were going to the park she was making it seem like she was practically blaming me for something that they did and kept bringing up the fact that in my past i would make friends on the internet and i would probably take pictures of myself and sell them or whatever, not this this just pissed me off the rest of the night because why tf are you bringing random shit into this? tf. anyways i like my body but not that much, and i told her that. Fast forward- we get to the park and i at one point ask if i can wander around and she continuedly tells me that no i have to stay right in front of her the entire time while all these kids get to run around and i can see all of my friends all over the place and im just there like wtf man. Cj and I kept getting into arguments, and at one point, "Becky" and her friends finally came over to where cjs husbands' family's at, and im finally aloud walk over to them, and we chill. Cj is not having any of it and she keeps looking back at me and she's making faces and its just annoying meanwhile if Jorja was with her then she would've been able to go anywhere she had liked and she would've been able to do anything she wanted to do and i brought that up to cj that she would treat us so differently and she swears up and down shed wouldn't treat us differently but she does. Anyways the night goes on, and the fireworks start, and i have sensitive ears, so it wasn't fun for me at all, and i just wanted to go home, but yea. We finally go home, and the entire time, Cj is complaining to me that i had an attitude the entire night when, in reality, i was angry and upset. I was trying to have an attitude but yk difficulty's trying to maintain a composure when you're getting blamed for everything. We eventually get to my house and we talk to my mom, Jorjas sitting out there and shes in a better mood AND Cj just starts complaining more to my mom about me in front of me and while we were at the park she was complaining to my mother and my mother was complaining to me and it was just so stupid. Anyways i ended up going inside and taking a shower and eventually i come out to talk to my mom more and i explained my side of the story to her which she ended up being on my side but you know. We got over it. Jorja and I haven't had a fight over this because there isn't anything to fight about, but Cj tries to bring it up every chance she gets, so yea, there's that. 

Now on to the Becky drama! Her actual name is Karmen, but we are calling her Becky. Now she was the one who initially invited to the park and she had these other friends with her and mind you shes claiming that her friends are all like 19 and in their early 20's which some of them are like one of the guys was 23, another was 20 others were 19, then there were to 14-15 year olds and karmen and a slutty 17 year old (im older then her by a month and some days) anyways they were okay i guess to be around not my group of people but it was what i was stuck with so yea. At one point Karmen is over there talking to her mom and they both seem upset and i walked over and i said hello and what not and i was going to push karmens glasses up but she yelled at me for that and her mom got onto her so yea. Her friends were all very weird and most likely on drugs, or there was alcohol in their systems, and they were all touchy. Anyways, they ll were weird people and would exclude me from things which at this point im used to. Fast forwarding to like 3 days ago or 4 idk, Karmen is on snapchat with me and is sending me videos of her talking and she mentions that this mutual friend who is graduated now is going back to his ex because truth be told he didnt really want to be with Karmen, He flirted with her and was acting like theyd get together when they never did he just wanted her for sex just like all the other guys she has tried to date and between us- she chooses the shitest of guys to date and then judges me because of my exs and mines weird relationship. Anyways, he tells her he wants to get with his ex, which is fine, but it makes Karmen come and complain to me about it, and this is how the convo goes 

K- Guess who won't be having a bf anytime and who will be single going into high school next year! So today is going back to his ex- i mean he chose her over me! Over me!

S- Well, i did tell you that this was  a very big possibility that could happen, and then i told you to be careful about what would happen, and you dont ever listen sooo

K- okay, i dont need you to criticize me. and I've got people who like me, and i dont have to be single, and im not you...blah blah blah

S- Im not critizing you i just tell you what will happen, and you still do it, so it's not my fault. I've got multiple people who like me and who would date me. im not in the mood to date anyone. I dont need someone to give me validation, so i feel better about myself. That and i dont get used to my body, so i mean 

K- I dont want to argue that with you, but people dont use me for my body! and My mom is mad at me because you said something to her and none of my friends like you because you were a bitch to them.

S- I was not a bitch to your friends i was nice to them and no one was rude expect for you. I never talked to your mom expect to say hi to her. You were the one being a bitch to me the entire time. I dont care that you dont want to argue. I am literally the only one who will tell you the truth and im not the only one who thinks about it either. 

K- your just a bitch and no one likes you blah blah

S- many people like me. And im tired of your bullshit, im not the one who ruins my relationships with everyine because you just cant stand not having the attention all on you and only you. you just have to blame everyone and take all the attention and ruin everything around you. I want nothing to do with you and keep my name out of your god damn mouth or i swear to god karmen. 

and them i blocked her and went and told Cj what happened so she need my side of the story and i ended up telling her that if she took Karmens side i would disown her completely as my family, i do not care if others dont agree with me but there is a time where your family should take your side before someone who just came into their life because of their husband. She ended up telling me that shed take my side if it was needed and shed shut any conversation about me down altho it would cause issues on her side of the family. Now listen i really dont care about that side of the family they are all not my people so i dont care what they think about me but yk. Anyways i ended up talking to a few friends of mine and they all never liked Karmen in general but they were all on my side and my only favor that i asked of them was if they heard shit to shut it down. I aint repeating my sophmore year of highschool and this summer break. As soon as school starts im getting a no contact-contract against her which litteraly means she cant talk about me at all this whole new school year and if she men tions me in any way at all and i find out or my friends do we can get her into a lot of shit and it could lead to her being expelled from school so yea! 

Anyways sorry for misspelled words and that this was really really long. But anyways see you later