so far this is my life

Tanner

Okay, so I've mentioned him a few times, but like oml. This man. Gosh, honestly, I could stare at him all day if he'd let me, but he wouldn't lol, which is fine. But he's so sweet and I mean he's a dick but like he's so nice! And he's kind, and he's a flirt, but he's cute, lol. He has easily become one of my favorite people tbh with you guys, and like I like hugging him and holding his hand and just being around him. He's one of the only people I really like to be around, and I don't even care. I'm genuinely happy for once in my life. He's definitely a weird guy, but it's not a creepy weird it's a good weird. He makes people smile around him, and he has this vibe that like just makes you happy, and he can make any room light up, and he's just so pretty to look at in all honesty.  When I'm with him though I'm really comfortable like it's not even funny. I'm relaxed and I'm happy and I'm smiling. God, that man can make me blush with a single word. The best part is that before he got grounded is I'd see him every weekend lol even tho I'd see him a lot at school. Like I'll see him in the morning with iur friends and then I'll see him again at noon so around lunchtime and then I'll see him before school gets out and then before I leave to go home I see him. Every time we see each other well hang out and talk and hug or well hold hands, or I'll hold his arm it's mainly me doing shit but he never seems to mind, so yk and then when I see him around noon, we walk to this little area off to the side and we talk and then we hug and gosh and then before our 8th period starts we see each other again and we'll walk off to the side and we'll talk and I'll ask how he is or vise versa or he'll make fun of me and then we'll hug and then we separate and then I see him before I leave to go home and we'll hang out with our friends and gosh. Today was no different tbh. Today, I saw him in the morning, and he hugs me before he leaves to go to his class which he did today and i asked if he was gonna be ungrounded by this weekend bc there's this party I might go to and I wanted him to go with me but he won't be ungrounded til probably after Christmas break. And then I saw him when I hung out a little bit in my second period, we had just ended 2nd period and I was waiting for my friend to hurry his ass up and in the middle Tanner walked in and was having a convo with our teacher and then I left and had my friend come with me and yeah. And then at noon I saw him again after 4th period, which is always my favorite time, tbh bc it's the middle of the day and he's the highlight of my day and just yes. We hugged and talked, and my friend was flipping me off bc I didn't wanna talk to her, lol but it'd okie and then I had to go to class and then I saw him before 8th period and we hugged and he had his head on my shoulder and so I asked if he was tired and he was lol and then I brought something up and he was like "yeah I was falling asleep on ur couch" lol when he was at my house we were on the couch watching a movie after I had gotten done putting make up on hid face and I was falling asleep on his shoulder but yk anyways and then we spilt and I saw him at the busses and just ugh. There's so much shit man I can't even. This man makes me so happy I can't even like I just cant