I Thought I Was A Devil

Season 2 Chapter 2

Jules was right about one thing, trying to make my existence a living hell, I have faced bullies throughout my life but never have I ever met a leach like her, not only she made me isolated in school, she also threatened the teachers to ignore me, on my second day, when I was about to enter the class, they splashed dirty water on my face, I felt annoyed but kept quiet, everyone stared at me intensely as if waiting for me to react, they covered their nose because of the stink coming from my wet body, they snickered while treating me as an eyesore, by now the whole school was aware of my enmity with Jules.

I walked towards my desk all drenched, I checked my desk and found that there was cigarette packet hidden inside my desk, I sighed then casually dropped it in one of my classmate’s bag while no one was noticing, anyways no one gives a fuck about my life, so why should I bother? You want entertainment, I will gladly entertain you. All of a sudden there was a surprise checking as everyone’s desks and bags were checked and of course that person was taken to principal’s office much to Jules despair. Unfortunately I can’t do anything to Jules or her gang directly because they are senior to me by one grade, but am sure that won’t be for long, after all they are stupid enough to think that they can harm me.

“Must be hard for you to handle all those bullies…I can’t believe that Jules have stooped to abusing a child younger than her” I looked up uninterested hearing the annoying voice while eating my lunch under the shade of a tree near the school building, she was a tall girl, with short blonde hair and blue eyes with black framed spectacle, she is in same class as Jules, and has been stalking me from some distance since yesterday’s incident, she gave out a warm smile but something deep inside my head warned me against her, even Jules doesn’t give out such ominous aura…rather when I think of Jules…it’s more like someone trying to hide her true vulnerable self by bullying others and establishing a reputation where people would fear her, in reality Jules isn’t even a threat, but this girl…she is different….a sarcastic smile curved at the corner of my lips, I have finally found a real challenge, and it made me eager to dig deeper, my blood started boiling with excitement, and the devil whispered sweet tone in my ears. She sat beside me sighing while staring at the ground with lonely eyes…the strong perfume smell from her body made me feel uncomfortable and forced me to stop eating.

Hazel: Please forgive Jules…I don’t know what has gotten into her…ever since she joined that barbaric team, those girls have been eating her head. (she said biting her lower lip)

Me: You seem to know her well (I asked half interested)

Hazel: We…used to be besties…when Jules first enrolled in our school, everyone used to discriminate against her because of her poor English and background, it was me who first approached her. (She said signing) wish that incident never happened….(she made a sad expression) I am sure you won’t feel interested knowing about it …I should get going…(she says standing up)

Me: Sure …hope we don’t meet again. (I said smiling)

Hazel: She….she seduced my boyfriend….( She said crying as she stands against the tree for support) How could she do that to me ….

Me: Uff the drama… (said in an uninterested tone while putting my lunch box in my bag) and you forgave her just like that? (I looked at her while smirking) if it was me….I would have ruined her… (my voice got darker while testing her)

Hazel : (all of a sudden she bent down grabbing my shoulders tightly as she gave a crazy look) I want to destroy her reputation! I want to watch her crawl on her knees and apologize for what she has done to me! (She laughed)

Me : (I covered her mouth with my palm) shh…don’t be stupid…they are everywhere. (I removed my hand standing up) Damn…I lost my appetite watching your stupidity, with that Intelligence level it’s better to die than dream of revenge.

I could feel her glare over my back as I walked towards the school building, it felt like a venomous snake waiting for it’s prey to let it’s gut down before it makes a move. I was in the corridor when Jules grabbed my right arm pulling me inside the female washroom, I frowned looking at her before taking a step back to make sure she doesn’t molest me like last time.

Me: What do you want? (I raised my eyebrow)

Jules : (she puts her hand against the wall behind me as she bent towards me even though my height is taller than her, she tried to look intimidated) Stay away from my bestfriend…. Don’t even think of hurting her.

Me: Bestfriend…(I gave out a small laugh) you are more innocent than you look, well good for you. (I smacked her hand away as I stood in front of the door) A small tip of survival, don’t blind trust your ‘friends’, real friends don’t encourage you to walk on dark path, they hold your hands and pull you towards light….soon you will repent for your sins through the betrayal of your friends. (I looked at her with sympathy as if she was a pathetic being).

Jules’s jaw tightens as she looked down, the veins around her forehead protruding due to suppressed anger, even though she felt like bursting out, something told her that my words were not some random shits. After that day she increased her bullying activities towards me, but only to get ignored. It was becoming childish and boring, and I had much more important things in life, namely my upcoming final exams in which I topped the whole school and got to skip classes and promoted directly to 8th Standard.

That afternoon after my final results were out, I called my mother to inform her about my promotion but what happened next broke my already broken heart.

Anna: Hey Anne…sorry I am kind of busy right now…(there was music and noises of children coming from background, it sounded like Angela’s friends have come over)

Me: Uhm…Mom…actually I….I got promoted to 8th standard and topped my school. (I said with a proud and happy tone hoping she will congratulate me)

Anna: Oh…I never had any doubts in your intelligence. (She sounded rather busy and half interested) You know! Angela scored a C in her tests this time (she said excited) we are holding a celebration to motivate her to score better in future, you should call your little sister to cong- (I disconnected the call)

I bite my lower lip frustrated clenching on the phone, my head started hurting, I held my chest with my free hand tightly as something hurt deep down, ‘will my parents start noticing me, if I become a bad student?...’ I thought to myself….."why is it always Angela this….Angela that….and what about Anne?.... I love Angela…. I am happy for her….but who is happy for me?....,"I used all my strength to throw the phone against the dressing table mirror as the glass breaks into various shapes showing my distorted image, there was a hint of sadness on my face, but mostly it was numb, a numb sensation caused due to reduced expectations of warmth from my own parents….if I can’t get an experience of belongingness from my own family…what to expect from the society?...I opened my bag and took out the picture book that my mother gave me before I left Japan ‘The fallen angel’ and hugged it tightly as if clinging on the last residue of hope before I drowning into never-ending coldness.

To be continued...