I Thought I Was A Devil

Season 3 Chapter 5

I was performing pushups in my room, it was around 8 PM, I was in my sleeveless top and shorts, today’s fight made me realize that I was losing my touch, and need to get my body back in shape. After returning from school, I was rushed to the hospital by Naomi, where they patched my nose, on our way back, I got an earful from her, she is like frustrated mother of two kids whom she didn’t give birth but somehow ended up being stuck with them. I was covered with sweat after completing 100 pushups, it felt like my stamina has reduced as I have grown up, I already miss being a child full of energy, I stared at my reflection on mirror and wiped my sweat against a towel, then putting the towel around my neck, I touched my bandaged nose giving out a frustrated sigh. “So Ugly” I thought to myself, out of all places, he had to hit my beautiful face. I walked in the bathroom and took a warm shower for 15 minutes, I started getting stressed regarding the mess that I ended up creating due to my impulsive behavior, I felt more confused about my own emotions, wiping myself, I changed my clothes walking out of the bathroom and started brushing my wet hair while craving for a cigarette. The room door opened, as Jules stood there with a guilty face, she stared at my injuries quietly.

Me: Knock before entering from next time, or I will kill you. (I rolled my eyes annoyed)

Jules: Can we talk? (She rubbed the nape of her neck feeling awkward as she takes out a cigarette package from her pocket along with a lighter)

Me: Go wait in the balcony, I will bring coffee. (I said walking past her)

Jules: Coffee along with Cigarette? (She raised her brow questioning my choices)

Me: Alright, I will bring coffee just for myself. (I went downstairs)

After a few minutes, I brought one mug of filtered coffee without sugar and milk for myself, as I stood beside Jules while taking small sips from the mug, she hands over a cigarette to me lighting it up with her lighter, I held the cigarette in between my index and middle fingers of my left hand and the coffee mug was in my right hand. I took a long puff of the cigarette before exhaling the smoke finally relaxing my brain. Jules stood there quietly smoking her cigarette as she stares at the street aimlessly.

Jules: Anne…about morning, please don’t mind Victoria, she is already going through a lot. (She hesitates while moistening her lips) Don’t tell her, she asked me to keep my mouth shut but….her mother is a perfectionist, she feels that Victoria is wasting her time playing football, and should be focusing on her studies, her mother is trying to control her life but you know, she is trying her best, but she is scared that if the football team fails, she will never get a second chance. (She sighs) She just took her anger out on the wrong person and I am sure she is feeling guilty regarding it. (She puts her cigarette against her lips)

Me: (I stared at my coffee mug for few seconds as I murmured softly) Maybe…I took out my frustration on the wrong person? (Julie’s crying face flashed before my eyes) Maybe I was too harsh on her. (I sipped more coffee while wondering)

Jules: Hm? Did you say something? (She looks at me)

Me: Nope, nothing. (I said while I put the cigarette against my lips inhaling smoke)

Jules: So what’s next? What are you planning to do? (She raised her eyebrow in a questioning manner)

Me: Already sent an email to Director and Vice-Director regarding the issue, they said they will investigate the matter and have a meeting tomorrow morning, and call me to the office day after tomorrow. Let’s hope for the best, or will need to come up with another method. (Smoke came out from my lips and nostrils, I stared at the sky taking a deep breath)

Jules: Yeah….(she glances at my face as if she wants to say something but hesitates)

Me: Shoot. (I put the remaining cigarette in the coffee to put it out while looking at Jules)

Jules: Huh?...Oh…uhm….(she goes red while biting her lower lip feeling embarrassed) So….I…I have a crush on a guy…he is my cousin’s friend and four years old than me. He studies in medical College…he is so handsome! (Her eyes sparkles with excitement) He treats me well, maybe he has a crush on me as well, but is shy? I don’t know, he said that I remind me of his younger sister…I know that’s a lie, I don’t know why few men are so shy….he could just tell me that he has feelings for me.

Me: (I almost felt like vomiting at her words) Jules…(I sighed rubbing my forehead) Please come out of your imaginary land, if he said that you remind him of his sister then maybe you actually do.

Jules: Agh Anne…you don’t understand men, jeez. (She pouts)

Me: I have two elder brothers, but sure, maybe I don’t understand men. (I replied a bit sarcastically but at the same time it wasn't in a rude manner) But if he actually have feelings for you, after saying that you remind him of his sister then maybe, he isn’t actually a good person. (I patted her shoulder)

Jules: (she frowns slapping away my hand) You are saying this because you never met him, if you do then you will understand, he is 18 years old has white skin, blonde hair falling over his forehead, blue eyes…(she starts blushing as she covers her face) his gentle smile, he is the dream man of every women…he is half Japanese….his Japanese accent is so sexy….(she bites her nail trying to control her emotions)

Me: (for a second I felt like she was describing brother Leo but I shock away that ridiculous thought, I cleared my throat trying to change the topic) anyways, I need to visit my brothers tomorrow, haven’t met them in last 5 years so let me sleep now. (I said while stretching my body and yawning sleepily) Goodnight.

Jules: Goodnight. (She pouts while exiting from my room)

I hoped that my fear wasn’t true, and that the person she was talking about wasn’t my elder brother Leo, because as far as I understand my brother, he doesn’t even like speaking with women other than his family members unless he actually consider them as his younger sister, I hope Jules doesn’t get her heartbroken because of her feelings.

To be continued....