I Thought I Was A Devil

Chapter 8

[Trigger Warning]

It was the D-Day, the sky was gloomy since morning, the lighting cracked in between the clouds making angry sounds, Jules been getting threat messages since last few weeks, she looked stressed before leaving for the match. I stood in front of the flower shop gazing at beautiful white roses, there is an ongoing turmoil inside my head, I tried contacting Victoria again, but she refused to meet me, we went to police station but they didn’t take us seriously because it’s between ‘children’, finally I choose to give up, it wasn’t my problem to begin with, I didn’t wanted to get overinvolved, I tried my best but at the end of the day, it doesn’t bother me….’does it not bother me?’ it’s easier said than done….I was about to leave when a small boy bumped against me and trembled almost falling down as I caught hold of him before he could touch the concrete road. “Tommy! I told you to be careful!” I looked up, a white blonde woman with hair tied in a knot with Hazel eyes hurried towards us, the boy was around 5, short blonde hair and freckles on his cheeks, he giggled looking at me hugging my legs while turning his head towards his mother.

Tommy: Mommy, this elder sister smells so nice, like sunlight and flowers. (He said giggling while still hugging me)

I stared at the child, as my cheeks felt a bit reddish due to some complicated emotion that made me feel warm and proud, this is the first time someone said that I smell nice... though I know that it’s a weird compliment…I could understand Jules’ affection towards this child, I touched his head softly patting him, feeling satisfied even though my face was void of any emotions, it was mostly internal pleasure, the child rubbed his face against my legs happily. ‘Puppy…’ I thought to myself while his mother stood in front of me almost out of breathe there were dark circles under her eyes and she looked tired and drained….”Taking care of children aren’t easy” that’s what I felt looking at her condition.

Emma: Tommy! Behave properly (she glared at him pulling him towards her) Say sorry to the Elder sister.

Tommy: (he puts his index finger against his lips pouting cutely while looking at his mother then at me) I am sorry sis….(he said staring at the ground feeling guilty)

Me: I…uhm…didn’t mind….(I said in a low voice feeling shy)

Emma: (she glanced at me for a second) OMG…that uniform…perhaps…do you know Jules?

Me: We are in same class…(I hesitated before continuing) we are acquaintance.

Tommy: Elder sister going to watch the match? (He asked innocently as I nodded slightly)

Emma: You should come with us, we would cheer for Jules together. (She has a bright smile over her face while she spoke in a jolly manner)

I kept silent for few seconds, my chest felt tightened, unknown guilt seized me, just a moment ago, these faces were nothing but mere pictures that Jules showed me, but now what? “Pathetic” I felt embarrassed of myself for thinking of giving up, does this woman even have the slightest hint that her son’s life is in danger? Of course not, then she wouldn’t have been here in the first place. Losing her husband at an young age, now her son is walking down the red line…how would have my mom reacted if I was in the same situation?...would they even care if I die?....

Before I could realise, I was already walking beside them advancing towards the Stadium, I held a white rose bouquet in my hands, Dr. Emma was buying daffodils for Jules as a sign of goodluck and suggested me to buy something as well…I thought white rose would be best for her as a symbol of new beginning from my side…also because these are my favourite flowers….the colour red makes white looks more gorgeous…I thought to myself while walking quietly. We stood in front of the crosswalk waiting for the signal to change its colour so that we can cross the road, a kitten moved towards us cautiously jumping on Tommy’s feet as he chuckled cutely, the kitten rubbed it’s body against Tommy’s legs. Soon the signal changed as the transports stopped moving allowing people to walk, the kitten jumped on the road and started running towards the other end of the road, as Tommy followed him.

Emma: Be careful Tommy! Don’t run or you will fall down! Jeez these kids..(she said sighing)

All of a sudden Tommy stood in the middle of the road petrified, “Tommy!!” Dr. Emma shouted horrified, all noise went numb as I could hear my heart beating faster ‘lubdub…..lubdub…’ my body moved on its own, I could feel the time stopping there at that moment, my muscle tightening, the bouquet falling from my hands as I pushed Tommy out of the way, the adrenaline rush, the pumping of blood, the sweat drops, the screeching sound of the car brakes as it hit me hard, the unbearable pain all over my body, the gushing out of warm blood, screams of people, everything felt numb….I could feel my body getting cold…my eyes were blurry….my head dizzy…only the sharp pain kept me conscious…my face and body covered in red, my tired eyes looked at Tommy giving a small smile as I stroked his cheek glad that he was safe…the little boy looked terrified as he cried…my lips moved slightly murmuring softly “I am…..fine…. don’t …..cry….I….am…..fine….”

My eyes started getting more blurry, as my head felt light and cold….I started getting drowsy…I could see someone standing in front of me with scythe in his hand ‘Death’ I murmured….the grim reaper has come to take me…the sweet feeling of death….I smiled feeling satisfied that I could die saving someone’s life…hell is waiting for me with open arms….how will my family feel realising that I am gone?...will they cry? Will they feel satisfied? Will they even care? But what does it matter now....My throat felt dry, even the pain was getting numb now…I laid there getting soaked in the pool of blood, the white roses have been stained red crushed under the tires of the car which took a turn around to drive away at top speed before the driver could be caught….the crushed petals covered the road, crowd surrounded me, light rain fell on my face as I blinked slowly accepting my fate….

“ANNE!!!” I heard a distant scream, ‘Jules?...’ I murmured the name under my reducing breathe…Why would Jules be here?....is it the illusion before the life gets drained?.... someone pulled my head on their lap, I could hardly make out the face…. Everything was hazy in front of my eyes….their tears fell on my cheek, the rain started getting heavier as it washed the blood from my body…I felt cold….my body temperature started dropping….

Voice 1 : Someone call the bloody ambulance!! (She screamed at the crowd) ANNE DON’T YOU DARE FALL ASLEEP!!! STAY CONSCIOUS!!! (she slapped my cheek hard trying to keep me conscious)

‘Ouch…bitch….’ That’s my precious face…. Don’t ruin it before my funeral….but it was useless…. Because my eyes were still closing as if someone was singing a lullaby near my ear to drown me into deep sleep….more familiar voices….I knew who were speaking….but I couldn’t see their faces….Even the words were unclear murmurings to my ears….my heartbeats increased again, the breathing started becoming shallow…

Voice 2 : Tommy!!...(someone hugged Tommy as he started crying loudly) Jules let’s hurry to the hospital….we can’t waste anymore time….

Voice 1: B-But the ambulance….(her voice was panicking)

Voice 3 : There is no point wasting time in waiting for the Ambulance….put her in my family car. (A new voice was heard)

Voice 1: WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE!!! YOU ARE THE REASON- (Jules was cut short as the voice continued)

Voice 3 : Please don’t waste anymore time…(the voice seemed concerned)

Voice 4 : B-But milady…..the car seat would get dirty with blood stains….(said an irritated voice as he hesitated while speaking)

Voice 3: Enough….put the lady in the back seat carefully….the car is brought from my family’s money, so it’s none of your concern, I will bear the consequences. (She said with a stern voice)

Two strong arms picked me up as I was moved from the spot, I started getting into a deep sleep…. Falling into an endless dream…where my mother hugged me putting my head on her lap singing a lullaby that she used to sing when we were a child, thereafter all the other voices became silent, I blinked slowly at times due to occasional face pats….but everything started getting numb and cold….there was endless darkness in front me…

To be continued...