𝐋𝐞𝐠𝐚𝐥 𝐓𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐛𝐥𝐞 | Fem reader x Gojo Satoru

The way things were

I let out a loud sigh as I feel all of the tension in my chest release. My pent up frustration seems to be leaving my body as I lay next to Satoru like this, he just has a magical effect on me which calms me to my very core when we're together in silence. It's funny considering how much we hated each other just a few weeks ago, and he had the opposite effect on me back then.

I turn my head in his direction but he doesn't return my gaze. It's fine though, I'm happy just to observe him for now, I'd rather him not look at me back. My peace is broken when he eventually speaks.

"Why did we stop?" I contemplate asking him what he's referring to just to string out the conversation for longer, just to remain in ignorance to the issues between us. Really, I know what he's talking about. I sigh once again as I turn back to the sky.

"We couldn't keep doing it." I respond simply, my words falling out weak and flat. I think it's too embarrassing for me to tell him the real reason. For me to tell him that despite us not being in a relationship, I was jealous of his other women. That the midnight calls and seductive looks at paralegals in the office bothered me would be too humiliating to admit.

"Why?" He says again, attempting to figure out my motives. "If it was so good, why did we stop?"

"It was good..." I agree, unable to explain to him my true reasoning.

"Then why?" He tries again, touching my shoulder with his hand gently as he does so, causing me to turn my head and look at him as we lay side by side on the grass.

I press my hand to my forehead in frustration, it's not like it will change anything if I do tell him, maybe it could even smooth things out between us? Spurred on by the alcohol courage in me I decide I should let him know the real reason.

"I didn't like the fact that you were sleeping with so many other women." I tell him point blank but his eyes show now signs of shock. He pulls his hand away from where it was resting on my shoulder and places it behind his head before returning his gaze up to the sky.

"I didn't know it bothered you." He says and I prop myself up on my side to look at him.

"It didn't bother me as such... I'd just call it more of an.... Unequal partnership." I say and he props himself up on his elbow to face me, mirroring my position.

"Unequal partnership?" He says with a small laugh.

"I don't know how to explain it, it's as if you're giving your time and energy to someone whilst they're spread thinly across multiple options... I don't know, it just didn't feel right, that's why I stopped it." I tell him and he uses his free hand to pick at the grass between us, plucking it strand by strand from the lawn.

"Unequal partnership." He mutters under his breath and I look to the side in embarrassment. Maybe I shouldn't have told him, or at least said it in a clearer way instead of using some stupid, corporate-feeling term. "Why don't we make it more equitable then?" He says and I furrow my brow in response.

"What do you mean? I don't have hundreds of other options like you." I respond with a tinge of jealousy which I make note of to wipe from my voice the next time I speak. It's too late though. As I say those words, even in the darkness, I can see Satoru's eyes flick to mine before retuning to the grass.

"I think you have more options than you think." He says and I give him an even more confused look. "Suguru?" He says and I let out a laugh.

"Geto?" I say as I fall back onto the grass. "No, I don't think so." I say with another laugh and he hits my arm.

"I saw you two this evening." Satoru says and I wince. "I also saw you two at my pool party a few weeks back, when you were dancing with him and kissed him." He says, a tinge of jealousy now detectable in his voice. I raise myself to face him once again before speaking.