Glacial

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* 2 months later*

Angel and I were sitting in the shelter after a long night out, and by long I mean long. we had gone into a few clubs and Angel had offered me a few drinks with the money she'd earned from her "jobs". we had gotten drunk and then hooked up with some guys from a pub down the road, probably making the worst decision of my life. As we sat on a couch in the corner of the room I felt hunger growing inside of me, a sensation I had been feeling a lot recently. I had been so long without food I forgotten what it felt like to be hungry, so instead my body told me I was full, so if I ate, I puked. I was tempted to eat but if I knew what would happen if I did, so I just ignored it, sinking back into the conversation.

I stayed longer than usual at the shelter today, I don't know why but I had a weird feeling about me and it made me feel uneasy. Angel told me about half an hour ago that she was going to be at a club until early hours of the morning, I knew what she would be doing and I decided I was going to go to sleep in my forest circle a little earlier tonight, the uneasiness was getting worse by the minute and I didn't know what it was. I packed up my bag and folded my rug before walking out casually, although I felt heavy and sick. I tramped down the road to the park and began to walk down the track when a hunger pain tore through my stomach, I stopped and let out a small whimper, it felt like someone stabbing me. the pain was still quite fierce but I continued walking until I was right in the middle of the familiar circle of trees, which had been my home for five months. I sat down with my legs crossed as the pain intensified once again, I gripped the grass and I squeezed it between my fingers.

As the night became clearer I lay flat on the grass, my back ached and the pain was prominent but dull. I turned my head and stared into the forest as the wind rustled through the trees, making it seem like there were people out there, children crying perhaps. as I lay calm, no pain, just the pulse I could feel in my wrist, I began to fall asleep. I dozed off and I dreamed about Ed and James, In my dream I saw Ed, depressed, but he had to stay strong for James. My dream rolled on and I found myself in front of Ed, he was mad. I looked up at him and saw the flames burning in his eyes as he reached into his pocket. he drew out a large pocket knife and the blade glimmered with the moonlight, he suddenly jerked forward and stabbed me clean in the stomach, drawing out the blade slowly and painfully before running off, leaving me alone.

My eyes shot open and I flew an hand to my stomach as I realized the pain I was feeling was real, I lifted my hand and there was no blood, the pain was internal and it was the worst it had ever been. I sat up and I felt stiff, like my hips didn't want to bend with me as I sat up. the pain was continuous now and I had to get help, I had read about this and I was showing signs of a bladder or kidney infection, or maybe even appendicitis. As I stood up, I picked up my bag and began to stumble towards the track that lead to the city. I was halfway down the track when I doubled over in pain, I began gagging and I vomited bile, which burned my throat. I stood with my fingers pressed into abdomen, waiting for the pain to at least dull a little. I needed to pee but there was no toilet for a while so I decided I would walk to the hospital as fast as I could. as I walked I suddenly couldn't hold it in any longer, I felt myself release, my legs became wet and I felt terrible, the pain was horrible.

I suddenly felt the worst pain I had ever felt in my life. I screamed, I was still only half way through the forest and I needed help now, I fell to the ground and screamed, the tears fell from my eyes at record speed and I let them. Something was seriously wrong, maybe if I screamed somebody would hear me. I balanced on my hands and knees and cried out, never before had I felt such a deathly pain.

I kept my crouched position, trying to get the pain under control so I could walk, but all it did was worsen, I think I am going to die. Im going to die in a forest.

The urge to strain my body took over and I let it, I screamed as I felt something inside me tear, I'm fucking dying I thought. I reached a hand down towards my abdomen and I hit something hard. I pulled my hand up and it was covered in blood, I began to panic and I tried to stand up but the lump made it almost impossible. Just as I stood up another sharp pain hit me and I felt something fall. I screamed as the most unbearable pain tore through me, and suddenly it stopped.

I breathed out and my sweat covered body was now pain free. I felt heavy so I reached down and my hand collided with something slippery. I pulled at the object and I thought my insides had fallen out. I lifted my arms and suddenly the object that had fallen beneath me screamed, I almost dropped it until I realised I had just given birth in the middle of a forest.

The tiny infant screamed and although I couldn't see it, I cuddled it close to my chest and stood up, I wrapped my rug around me and the baby and began to walk. I walked until I reached the well-lit city streets, where I then stopped and took a deep breath. Maybe I need to find Ed now. I need to find him, i'll go to his house. I began to walk quickly, the tiny baby held tightly to my chest. it let out a whimper and I patted its back as I walked. I placed my hand on the baby's head and realized how tiny it was, its head felt like I put my fingers around a tennis ball.

I knew I exactly where Ed's house was from here and it wasn't going to take me long, five minutes maybe. I turned a corner and I spotted the lamp-post a few meters away that was on the corner of Ed's street, I quickened my pace and the baby wriggled, pushing its hand up out of the rug it was wrapped in. I tucked the tiny hand back in as I stood at the end of Ed's drive way, would he even accept me?

I walked up and hesitated as I went to knock, I felt tears run down my face and I didn't bother to wipe them away as my fist collided with the door. I knocked loudly three times and I heard foot steps stomping towards the door, I felt suddenly sick as the handle turned.

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OH MY GOSH

OHHHHH SUSPENSE!!!

im gunna be so mean and make you wait to hear Eds reaction!!!

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