Glacial

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Imogen and John sat across from us on the two arm chairs, and Ed and I shared the two seater. Ed's parents both adored their grand daughters, and James was sitting on the arm of Imogen's chair, stroking the head of Estella, who was wide awake and staring at him with her eyes glistening. "James, do you like your baby sisters love?" Imogen asked as James jumped off the arm of the chair and squished himself in between Ed and I, leaning over Ed who was cuddling Iris. "yes, im a big boy now" he giggled and placed a gentle kiss on her forehead. "you are a big boy, and Granny and Grampa bought you a present" Imogen said, and she passed Estella over to John and pulled out a large box from behind the sofa. "a present for me?" James said with a confused look, his eyebrows furrowed. "yes James" john said. James had been feeling quite left out because the babies were getting a lot of attention, so when he was given a big present he was over the moon. He pulled the box in front of him as he sat on his knees, bouncing on them in anticipation. He began to open the box and his eyes brightened as he pulled out what was inside.

'Thank you granny and grampa!" he squealed as he picked up a large toy dinosaur that had a remote control. "you are very welcome" they both laughed, Ed and I both sat there watching him excitedly turn it on and press buttons, making the dinosaur move and roar. "at least he used his manners" I whispered to Ed and he laughed. I looked over at Imogen who had since taken Estella off John and was holding her outwards with her head in her hands, cooing at her. "mum, shes gunna think youre a weirdo" Ed laughed as his mum pulled faces at the newborn, who just stared at her blankly. "so what? she wont remember this" she said matter of factly.

Murray and Stu had since left, although they didn't want to go yet, they had business to sort out. "this is perfect" I whispered to Ed as he lifted Iris over his shoulder, making her struggle a little. "i know, our family" he said. Estella began to scream and Imogen had a concerned look spread across her face. "did I hurt her?" she said frantically, rocking the baby back and forth gently. "no, shes probably just hungry" I said and I got up from my comfortable spot on the sofa to retrieve her. I sat back next to Ed and he gave me a look. "what?" I said and he smiled at me. "youre just gunna pull our your boobs and feed her here?" he said awkwardly. "well yeah, this is my home" I said in a way that made it sound like it was obvious. "true that" he said.

As Estella fed, Imogen watched me carefully, I had no idea what I was doing, so I needed advice from someone who had experience. As she fed, she started to cough and my heart rate sped up, I panicked and looked up at Ed's mum, who was laughing. "just pat her bottom, she's fine" she said and I breathed out a sigh of relief. Once Estella was done, I decided I may as well do Iris too, in one go so I wouldn't have to worry about it later. she was fine, I had no problems and I was beginning to think I was becoming a natural at this. "that's better isn't it?" I whispered as I sat her up, placing a hand gently over her chest, I patted her back and she burped, as well as puking down her onesie. "that's nice" Ed said and he laughed, probably making fun of me because I had to change her. "oh shut up you" I said and I punched him playfully.

As the evening set in, I began to get unbelievably tired. John and Imogen had left earlier and Ed and I were now alone in our house, with just us and our three little angels. "did you know I wrote a song for you?" Ed said as we lay together on the sofa, all three of the kids were now asleep, so we had alone time. "no, wait you did?" I said as I tilted my head up to him with my eyebrows forming a confused expression. "yeah, I did" he said " its going on my new album" he added and I felt a warm feeling rush through me, "oh really?" I said, "what's it called?" I asked, looking up at him thoughtfully. "its called Im a Mess" he said and my thoughts changed. "will you sing it for me?" I asked and he gave me a nervous look, "sure thing, I need my guitar" he said and he shifted me off his chest and got up to retrieve his guitar.

He came back a few seconds later, closing the door to the living room quietly behind him. "ready?" he said and I nodded, sitting up. he started with a single strum and then the lyrics started to float through the room, my eyes focusing on the way he looked when he sang. savoring every moment.

"i messed up this time, late last night

drinking to surpress devotion,

fingers intertwined, I cant shake this feeling now,

going through the motions, going through us"

as he finished the final chord of the song he put the guitar down and gave me a nervous look "is it good?" he asked "i tried to put it in your pint of view after I heard what you did while you were gone" he said and threw my arms around him. my lips crashed onto his and I pulled away for a second, "it was perfect" I whispered as our lips connected, electricity shooting through my body. "i love you so much" Ed whispered and I felt him pull me in tighter. "lets just cuddle" he said and I nodded inot his chest, we snuggled together on the sofa, with a movie playing in the back ground. no talking.

it was just us, and our family.

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hey!

how are you?

im pretty sick right now unfortunately, so my updated may be slow and short. hopefully its still up to my usual standard though!!

I really wanted to say thank you for all the support ive been getting while im sick, it really means a lot to me, knowing people care.

thank you!

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