Glacial

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Ed and I had been sitting with Iris for most of the day, I was feeling better about this now. "Ed are Estella and James okay?" I asked, i'd almost forgotten we had two more kids because i was overly focused on my baby who was now staring at me with her sleepy eyes, almost forcing herself to stay awake. "yeah, they're fine, mum said we can drive up to see them if you want to" he said. I looked up from my gaze on the floor, " No, I want to stay here" I said and shook my head, Ed looked at me with a little bit of worry on his face. "maybe going out will freshen you up a bit love" he said and I looked up at him, my eyebrows furrowing. "i don't want to leave her" I said bluntly, averting my gaze back to the floor, tears forming in the corners of my eyes. I sniffed once and Ed was already next to me, wrapping an arm around me, "love, she's going to be fine" he said and I nodded, although I couldn't believe him because I was afraid of what the future will hold for my baby, she could be teased for being in a wheelchair or for being different and that would kill me. "what about the bullies?" I said and he sighed, I knew he was silently freaking out, and that's understandable. "look, if she gets bullied its because people are heartless" he said and I just looked at him irritably, he didn't understand how much this was bothering me. "sure" I said quietly.

since it was getting late, Ed and I were told to go back to my room so we kissed our girl goodnight and wandered slowly back to the elevators. "after you" Ed said and he gestured for me to step in, which I did so with a giggle. Ed pushed me up against the wall of the elevator and his lips crashed onto mine, the previously unidentified craving I had now been identified. My body, my lips were craving the taste that his allowed. The warming sensation he offered made me shiver with pleasure. Ed's tongue traced my bottom lip and I opened my mouth a little, allowing him entrance as he pushed the button behind me. I felt the floor drop and I knew this moment would be short lived as we landed on the second floor. "ugh" I moaned as the doors opened, revealing awaiting people.

we stepped out and began to walk back to my room when I felt faint. "Ed I don't feel so good" I said as I leaned against the wall and held his arm for support. "are you alright?" he said and I heard his voice begin to wobble and my vision blur like I was going into a dream. I felt myself falling and I tried to stop it but I couldn't, the world was flashing before my eyes and then it all went out.

I woke up some time later in a bed, I didn't know what had happened but I felt weird, like I was high all over again. "Ed" I whispered groggily, my voice was croaky and sore. "hey baby" he said as he inhaled sharply, I must've woken him. "what happened to me?" I croaked, trying to sound as clear as I could, but so far I sounded like a male going through puberty. I looked up at the roof as I spoke, staring at the white ceiling. I was reminded of my home town as I stared at the whiteness, the time I had been in hospital with James, which had made me officially hate the color white. With a passion. "you passed out" Ed started " They cant find a purpose" headed and I felt sick suddenly, why couldn't they find a reason for this, I had passed out three times now. "doctors are useless" I moaned and Ed giggled, although this was not a time for jokes. "shut up" I said grumpily. "sorry" he said and he laced his fingers around mine as I still stared blankly at the ceiling.

"do you know how much I want to be healthy again" I said and he gave me a confused look. "uh why?" he asked questionably. "because I miss making love to you" I said honestly and he laughed, I felt slightly embarrassed, I mean I really did miss it but I hate the idea of sounding like im addicted. "i miss you too" he whispered. "when you get outta here" he said and he winked at me.

I felt myself becoming more and more exhausted by the second, the struggle to stay awake becoming harder. Ed was rubbing circles on my hand and it made me feel fuzzy as I closed my eyes. I think this is happiness.

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Yes,yes I know another short one...
Im so very tired
And kinda going through alot so my updates will have my emotions for a bit.

But here's an exciting new thing
9 chapters untill the sequel!!!!!

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