Glacial

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Ed was holding both of my hands as he stared intensely into my eyes, I was waiting for an answer, the answer to my daughters future. "Ed tell me what's wrong with her" I said anxiously as a gripped his hand tighter, making my knuckles turn white. " baby, she's paralysed" he said and I let go of his hands and started to shake my head in disbelief. " no no, no Ed she can't be" I said and I began to cry,my face had that familiar burning sensation that had been on and off all day.

" I'm sorry love " he said and he pulled me close so I could cry into his chest " please don't run again" he said and I hook my head, I was too numb to run. I straddled Ed with my head on his chest, my eyes burning as tears splattered on his shirt. "Lanie, it'll be okay, we'll work it out" he reassured me, and all I could I was sniff and nod, so he knew I trusted him.

As we lay together on the small bed, I felt myself get tired and I snuggled down with Ed and he cuddled me close, his lips pressed to my forehead as he breathed out through his nose, warming my face. " I'm sorry for being mad so suddenly" I said and he looked down so our eyes met. " don't be, its stressful I know" he said and I put my head back down into his chest, closing my eyes, " okay" I said.

I woke up nuzzled into Eds side, his arm draped over my back. I shifted and he grunted quietly. " morning you" he whispered, " hi" I whispered back. " feeling better?" He asked and I nodded, my head still pressed into the crook of his neck. I was enjoying the warmth, he was like a walking radiator, always warm even in the coldest of temperatures. " I'm not moving" I said, my voice tired and muffled by his shirt. "that's fine" he said "we have all day" he added and I smiled, although nobody could see it.

We lay there with the morning sun flowing through the window, the warmth it brang making goose bumps arise on my skin. "Can we see her" I said expressionlessly as I raised my head to look at him. " yeah of course" he said, and he sat up, pulling up my tired body with him. We got up and walked down to the elevators. We stepped inside and I felt nervous, i knew my daughter was never going to walk, and that was scary, but I needed to be strong for my family.

We stepped into the room where he lay, the helmet of wires still attached to her head, her eyes still puffy and her body motionless. " oh my girl " I whispered as I stroked her hand. She let out a small wimper and opened her eyes, I felt my face form a grin as I looked over her.She looked up at me with some confusion until she realised who I was and she smiled, it felt so good to see her smiling. " she remembers you" Ed grinned and he nudged me, making me smirk. " surprising ain't it?" I said, as Ed had been the one doing all the work the past few weeks, while I was sitting in bed too angry and unpredictable to presume my daily life.

" Lanie, you and Iris share a special bond because you're her mum, she knows you " he said and he sighed at the end, I knew that it was true, but I felt like I hadn't been there when I should have. " mhm" I said.

"Hello?" A nurse said as she nocked gently on the door. " hey" I said as she walked towards Iris, who was laying wake with her grip tight around Eds thumb. " do you want to hold her while I set up her day machine?" The woman asked. " oh yes" I said excitedly, I was almost desperate to feel her touch. She was taken off herachines and placed in my arms, from her waist down was limp, it felt like holding a puppet in a way. She was able to move her arms and neck, so she was able to hold things and turn her head when we called her. " maybe it won't be so bad" I said as he cuddled into me, a small smile on her face. " of course it won't " Ed said " can I?" He said, reaching his arms out towards Iris. I placed her in his arms and he held her naturally, rocking lightly while humming the tune of give me love, which he had written while I was gone.

I watched the way he looked at his daughter, his eyes were full of love and compassion. A love that's never failing.

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