Insensate.

28. Deep Affection.

My eyes weren't that hurt when the brightness shone on my face. I was, indeed, in a very bright but far Place.

I inspected what looked like the ceiling, with squinted eyes. A tired groan escaped my throat, "..What.."

Soon, I recalled all of the events. I'm home, at last. A voice called out to me, caressing the back of my hand with their thumb, "..Joseph!"

I turned to where I suspected the voice would be, and I saw the Person that I longed to see after these events. Sebastian. Here he was, sat beside me, a concern clouding his expression. With furrowed eyebrows, wide eyes, and an open mouth from surprise, but relief, he let out a gasp. "..You are Alright..! I thought something had.."

He sighed, "Nevermind, how are you..? What happened? You've been asleep for more than ten hours. It is 6 in the evening, I had no choice but to contact your Father.."

And I wasn't angry at that. Or that I missed ten hours of my life.

I'm just happy that I saw Sebastian, and that I'm no longer a Runner.

I smiled, overstimulated by the noise, and every little movement I made. "..It's fine. I was.. In the Afterlife? I believe so. You know, the things I had to do, that were necessary."

I told him, when we kissed in the hospital, that there were things that I had to do. And I've dealt with those things.. With Marie, and such.. I will deal with it. But, maybe, just maybe, I might have a chance with Sebastian.

Funny how times are going fast. I remember vividly, how our relationship changed too drastically for me to comprehend it. We were strangers, getting to know each other and now, look us. Giving each other giddy but shy eyes.

I grasped his hand tighter. "It sounds scary, unbelievable, I know.. But, I've dealt with those things. I can help us.."

Sebastian's face turned sullen, "..Oh, Joseph. If I had known, I wouldn't have put so much pressure on you."

"But-"

He shushed me. "Shh.. No more words, listen to me. I'm proud of you, really.. But I need you to take care of yourself, I can't have you being hurt. I'm surprised by myself," He mumbled to himself. "How attached I've gotten you, despite the fact that we barely know each other."

"Barely is an understatement. Let's forget about time, we've become very close, and I want to ask you, do you like that?" I asked, with an serious expression.

He replied, sounding sure of himself. "Absolutely."

I blushed, he caught me off guard again. "O-oh.. I like it too!"

He smirked, and I bit my lips, cursing myself in my mind for being so loud and sounding so eager!

Taking a few deep breaths, I softly announced. "..The Fetus,"

Sebastian's face darkened, His Adam's apple bobbed repeatedly. "Let's not-"

"We have to, I'm sorry," I firmly stated. Tears shimmered in his eyes when I gazed into his dark cloudy eyes, "She, had a few words for you.".

"Daddy, I miss you, I know you miss me too, but you have to forgive yourself. I love you, and I always will." And with those last words, he sniffled, his head dropped low on my hand, and he sobbed.

I comfortingly pat his head, closing my eyes, I said nothing.

Because nothing could lessen the pain, of losing a child.

∞

It was time, I knew it was.

They had to know about Sebastian, I wanted for them to meet him. They didn't have too, but as José said, 'Come to the Family house.' And I'm ready, so I'm going.

I just wanted to take Sebastian with me, I wanted for him to be included. But, I wasn't sure why. Did I really need a reason to want for him to be by side?

A hand locked itself around my wrist, I stopped walking, whipping my head around. "..Yes?"

His grey eyes pinned themselves on me, an insecure glint in them. His free hand gripped the end of his long dark grey, knitted pullover. I could see them shaking, and could sense the anxiety he was emitting. What had gotten him so worked up?

Sebastian mumbled in fear, before gradually finding the confidence to speak louder. "..I had a dream."

NO!

"And it had me thinking,"

He stepped forward, my feet subconsciously took me backwards. A dead end as my back pressed itself against the door, Sebastian looked even more confident, well, when he caught me blushing, hand curling around the door knob,

A means to escape this confrontation. And it seems he already knows his answer.

"..You went out of your way, to help me. You had yourself in complications, dangerous situations, only to help me?"

I breathed heavily, I was so excited yet anxious.

He smirked, eyes paying attention to mine. Not my lips, not my body, but me. ".. Remember when I said you were my life?"

I didn't have to answer, and yet I nodded.

Sebastian let out a puff of laughter, he leaned forward, whispering gently, while carefully removing my hand that was curled around the door knob. He holds it so loosely so he doesn't hurt me, lifting my hand up, he placed a kiss on it. Eyes set only on me, as if he wanted nothing more but to shower me with affection, because I..

Because I deserved it. And I knew that, now, I did, because of Sebastian.

"Well, you are. And I love you."

A tear ran down my face, and right then, I began to sob, when he finished it off with, "You are worthy and deserving of my Love."

And a passionate kiss to my lips.

With that, I was certain, and I had a reason as to why I wanted for him to meet my Family.