Insensate.

22. Serious talk.

Joseph's pov.

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My leg was bouncing nervously, Harry and José were taking a very long time, and I couldn't help but feel fear. Were they okay? Did they ignore my words and leave? Were they safe? Were WE safe?

I turned my uncomfortable gaze towards Sebastian who was now more awaked.

"What happened?" He asked rather carefully and painfully, as if it took him his entire strength to speak.

Relieved that he was responsive, the corners of my lips perked up. "..You emitted energy from your hand, and it must've have exhausted you. How do you feel now?"

He looked up, and pondered on what I had just told him. When the information registrated in his mind, he propped himself up on his elbows. He moves back to rest his head against the wall. "..Better."

I rub my hand against my neck, averting my eyes somewhere else, I began. "..Kisses aren't enough, Sebastian.."

I sound desperate, as if I want more.

Sebastian hums thoughtfully. "..I know, but-"

I slap his chest, fuming, he could have died fully this time! "You knew? Why didn't you tell me, I could've done something more!-"

"See! This is why." Sebastian snapped back, but his anger wasn't directed towards me.

Sebastian sighed tiredly. His eyes danced around my face, a sad smile plastered on his face. "You have the tendency to always want to please someone, because you're afraid of being judged. Not only that, you feel pressured to help me, that's why I didn't tell you."

Gently, he grasped my arm, and pulled me towards him so that our faces were close. "I didn't want to pressure you into giving me more than kisses. I know what it's like to be unwillingly touched, and I didn't want you to feel that way."

My gut wrenched when he said that, that marie... I could fear the anger rising in me, and Sebastian felt it too, so he placed a chaste kiss on my forehead.

Sebastian's smile had a passionate meaning behind it, the color of his eyes held an intense alluring hue to it, as the seductive words escaped his lips. "If you tell me how you feel.. About all of this, about me, I'll let you help me."

My face burned, I hurriedly tried to scramble away, but the hands on my hips pulled me back. No.. I didn't want to let him know,

But let him know what? I was too confused about my emotions! I found it sweet, okay? And I liked.. Loved it when he called me sweet that day. When he caressed my cheek, before placing a kiss on my cheek. That day where we first shared our kiss, I was only helping him by doing so, and Sebastian knew that too, yet he kissed me with such gentleness and kindness.

A tear ran down my face due to the fact that I never thought that someone would show me affection. I guess I was overwhelmed, and that was why that tear escaped my eye. Confused on how his fingers caressed my cheeks as he kissed me carefully and slowly, his other free hand fixing the knots in my head. His fingers brushed through my hair, and a dazzling smile on his face after he set me on the floor.

It all made me confused, but.. Something was clear to me,

Despite not knowing each other for long,

I knew that I was slowly starting to fall for this Man.

Shyly, I crossed my arms, and shamefully, I looked down. There was no way I could form my thoughts into a sentence, it was too much, and my feelings for him were too sudden.

When I looked down, I failed to catch the pleased expression on his face. A radiant and blissful grin on his face as he pulled me in for a kiss. I gladly accepted his kiss, smiling against his lips. I lifted my left hand to grab the back of his head, pressing him deeply against me. Sebastian's hands gripped my hips, and I let out a groan of satisfaction.

I wasn't sure what came over him, when he wrapped his arms around my waist tightly, lifted me up, only to set me on his lap. My legs were parted and on either sides of his thighs. My right hand caressed his neck, and my left pulled on his hair. I knit my eyebrows as Sebastian became even more dominant, his hands gripping my hips as he pushed them down, then he made sure to roll them against his bulge. My face heated up when I realized what we were doing, but honestly, I couldn't care less.

We were breathing too heavily, I panted as our kiss ended, a string of saliva connecting us. I gaze into his eyes that resembled a Tornado. His eyes were no longer distant, they had hope, and a spark of light lit in them as he stared at me with relief. The annoyance from earlier disappearing.

"Sebastian," I looked away, I couldn't deny that I had no worries. "This is all too fast for me.. I'm not sure about.. Us.. About what we are,"

I took a few deep breaths, my heart was racing so hard, and my hands were shaking with anxiety. I could feel my body start to itch like it did when I started to feel fear, or despair. "..And about Marie.. Plus, I have to deal with some things that could potentially help you and I."

Sebastian eyed me with an unfathomable look, but I knew that he was listening when he nodded, and clasped my hand.

I stayed silent, trying to calm myself down. Soon, I raised my gaze of uncertainty and I looked at Sebastian, smiling at him genuinely. "I will help... With kisses, hugs, and such... But, I need some time. I'm new to all of this, and I want to get to know you more."

Sebastian's lips perked up even more, a wide grin on his face, as he hummed. "I understand.. I appreciate all that you have been doing for me, Buttercup," My stomach churned in an confusing way, but for some reason, I liked the feeling.

I got off him, and went back to my previous position.

Sebastian made himself comfortable on the bed, before the door opened, and someone fainted, he stared at me in such an unbelievable way, I thought it was the same stare my father gave my mother, "And I'd like that, for us to get to know each other even more."

My heart almost leaped out of my chest when someone opened the door, I heard José voice, and then a Loud thump on the floor.