Will She Be Like This Forever?

Chapter 61

Girls are crying on the bathroom floor

'Cause a boy been breaking what he can't afford

Tell me, where does love go when it goes to die?

Put my cold dead heart on a bed of ice

Bea and her Business

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Sunday 1st May 2022

"You girls are not right for each other." 

Our mouths moved in perfect unison, my hand resting on her thigh as she sat next to me. Neither of our tongues came into play, keeping the kiss sweet as my tears continued to pour out of my eyes and down to our mouths, finding their way to Mapi's skin. I tried making the kiss more heated by bringing my hand further up her leg, but she finally clicked on to what was happening and put her hand on mine, slowly but surely finishing the kiss.

I hid my head in my hands, crying, as I continued to listen to the waves, with Mapi sitting next to me. She put her hand on my back, not speaking a word as I quietly sobbed. "What happened, nena?" she whispered, her hand continuing up and down my back, trying to calm me down. I didn't reply; I just kept on crying. "You kissed me. Did you break up?" she spoke again, and I felt so shit. She probably thinks she was a rebound kiss or something.

Instead of answering, I got up and went to walk back down to Katie's house. Mapi ran in front of me, putting her hand on either side of my body, holding my arms. "Look at me." she whispered, and I did; my eyes were still full of tears, so I could barely see, but I could see her. "I'm not letting you walk home at nearly 1am. Come home with me." she asked, and I looked back down. "Look, Ale knows I'm here and she is fine with you coming home to the hotel with us, I promise. I don't want you walking at night." she put two fingers under my chin and made me look at her, before she placed a little kiss on the top of my head, pulling me into her.

"I'm going to take you to the car, okay? We don't have to drive if you aren't comfortable yet, but we can sit in there." she spoke, keeping me in the hug but walking me over to her car where she put me in the passenger seat. She got into the driver's seat of the very warm car, and I got overstimulated by the heat. I tried taking off my jumper, but it wouldn't budge, which made me cry and stress a little bit more. "Babe, calm. I've got it. Stay still." Mapi spoke, gently lifting up my hoodie as I cried. "Drive." I whispered, bringing my knees up to my chest, resting them on the seat. "Okay but I'll go slow, okay?" she spoke, and I nodded as I rested my head against the cold window, still crying.

We drove past Evie's house, and I saw the living room light on. "Wait. Stop." I spoke and Mapi did, thinking it was the driving. She saw where I was looking and shook her head. "Not tonight." she whispered but I shook my head, getting out and running to the door. I didn't hear Mapi drive off, so I guessed she stayed in the car. I stood at the door for a good 2 minutes, until I knocked. Evie opened it and looked at me, her tear-stained face staring back at me. "Please?" I begged but she shook her head. "Baby, think about it. We need this. We need the space." she whispered. "But I start the Euros soon. What's going to happen?" I cried more, realising I wouldn't have her that whole time. "Maybe we have to wait until after the Euros to talk about this and get back together. I need you to focus on you and winning that trophy, not on us fighting." my girlfri... ex-girlfriend... spoke.  

Mapi🌹

Come on x