Will She Be Like This Forever?

Chapter 84

And I know you're down and out now, but I need you to be brave

Hiding from the truth ain't gonna make this all okay

I see your pain

If you don't feel our grace and you've lost your way

Well, I will leave the light on

Tom Walker

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Saturday 6th August 2022

I promise.

I woke up this morning to see Mapi sound asleep, and considering we didn't go to sleep until about half 4 this morning, I was awake quite early. I felt so incredibly sick, so I checked to see if she was about to wake up, which she wasn't, and I ran to the bathroom, puking half my guts up. I swear, this may just be the worst part of pregnancy.

While I was here, I decided to take my injections, so Mapi didn't see them when she woke up. I took my needle out of my drawer, filled it up with the exact measurement I needed, and stuck it where it needed to go, and also took my tablets after so I had everything out of the way for the day.

I did what I needed to do in the bathroom, and heard Mapi move, so I quickly opened the door, seeing her still sound asleep, just taking up most of the bed now. How on earth am I going to get back into bed now? Shit. I giggled to myself, walking back to my side, and sliding in very carefully, making sure not to wake her.

I was on the very edge of the bed, but I didn't mind as long as I was in the bed with her. I love being in bed with her. I love being with her in general.

I wasn't sure if she was going to remember last night, and I didn't know if I wanted her too or not, because the way we were last night when we came upstairs was something I did not like in the slightest; something I would not want to relive again. I sat up on my phone, scrolling mindlessly through my messages, and there were a few from the girls on holiday.

Captain⭐

I miss you! You should so be here. You deserve it.

Thanks, Le, but I needed to be home xx

Luce💙

Honestly, you don't understand how fun it is here. You should just get on a plane and come now x

I wish!

Kei🐶

We could sooo do with our fun little kid right now. I MISS YOU! Xx

Miss you too, Kei! Have fun and be safe x

I smiled at my messages, then went over to Twitter, where everyone was going a little crazy. There were so many posts about me and Mapi, and I read the comments on every single one I saw. Most of them were just asking what the go is with us, but a few of them were still talking about me and Evie, or even Jo, which annoyed me.

I haven't posted anything in a good few days, because obviously I posted 'IT'S HOME!' on the day we won the Euros, but I felt like this was the time.

"Players and people see everything you post about them. Please do not bring my family, who are not in the public eye, into your tweets, please."