Sins of the Rebels (Lush Trans Series #1)

Chapter 34

Sa gilid ng mata ko ay kasama na nila ang iba pang mga pa-soft girl na mga kaibigan ni Reign. Nasa walo sila ngayon dahil kina Trevor, na panaka-naka ang pag-sulyap sa pwesto ko. Bigla kong naalala ang ginawa kong pag-takbo noon nang tawagin nila ako, nakakahiya kasi...

Ipinilig ko ang ulo ko at nakitawa nalang sa biruan ni Lia at Jess kahit na hindi ko ma-intindihan ang kanilang pinaguusapan.

The urge for me to give them a glance was so strong, so I did. And it looks like all of them are teasing Hermideo and Reign, the girl beside her keeps on nudging Reign who etched a little shy smile on her lips as her cheeks turned a tint of pink. Mahinhin pa nitong sinuway ang kanyang kaibigan na inaasar siya bago susulyap kay Hermideo na nasa harapan niya kaya mas namula sita bago naaasiwang binaba ang mga mata niya sa pagkain.

Inabot ni Hermideo ang napkin pagkatapos ay dinala niya ang kanyang kamay sa gilid ng labi ni Reign at pinunasan ang sauce ng spaghetti. All of them teased Hermideo because of what he did, kaya naman hiyang-hiya na at parang kamatis na sa pamumula ang mukha ni Reign. Bakas na bakas ang kilig at kahihiyan sa hitsura niya.

Nilunok ko ang bikig sa lalamunan ko bago ko itinuon ang mga mata ko sa aking kinakain nang nahuli ako ni Jello na naka-tingin sa kanila, sobrang pait ng panlasa ko, parang nawalan na ako ng ganang kumain sa mga nasasaksihan ko.

I don't wanna drown myself in jealousy. All I could do best was not to let the lingering feeling get through me. I didn't want to regret my decision about my plans, and my top priorities in life.

But this feeling is shitting on me, it feels like a little part of me just died just now, but I know it's only momentary. Shortly, I will feel better and move on as if it didn't happen. This is life...

Reign Vigila.

Thinking about her felt... so irritating. I know that I shouldn't be this mad at her! This is just absurd. She didn't do anything to me. She didn't know what I felt for Hermideo. And that's the last thing that I want to do. Be mad at someone because of fucking jealousy! This is just hilarious...

I shouldn't be this petty!

But thinking about makes me feel so infuriated. Like an itch, I couldn't scratch it the way I wanted to scratch it.

My heart started to burn in rage, two hands squeezing my heart intensely because it fucking hurt. I wished I could obliterate Reign from this measly world. But I know I have nothing else to do. Anong nangyayari sa'yo, Reese? Why the hell are you thinking like this?!

Fuck. I don't know. I don't know what's gotten into me but gosh, this is my first time... first time! Ever! Feeling this way to a girl because of envy, jealousy or whatever it is!

I recall Hermideo looking at me with his dark eyes filled with hope. He really looked forward for my help to him, for her, for Reign. I agreed to help him. I advised him to speak to her physically when school starts and try to understand her and make her comfortable with his presence since she was a really nice girl, extremely demure. I also told him not to rush and speak normally for a month or two and to observe her, that's why I want him to change himself if he wants her to notice him. Kaya nga kami naging stalker dahil 'yon ang advice ko sakanya nung una, I wanted him to observe her. Pero kasi, malapit na naman ang pasukan nun, nagmamadali lang talaga si Hermideo that time at hindi makapaghintay. Back then, I wasn't very interested in listening to his pursuit of Reign but still, I asked him when he would tell her about his feelings.

Panay lang siya hingi ng tulong sa akin na parang ako pa ang gusto niyang kumausap kay Reign. When in fact, I already did my part. Siya na ang bahalang kumilos. Lahat na ata ng suggestion, advice at guidance ay nasabi ko na sakanya.