Love will Find The way

Chapter 45- L.O.V.E

Nandini's POV: 

It was a long day for me. I never expected Sid will come back one day. But Satya had it all covered. Last week was very eventful in my life. Satya's death is a biggest loss for me. I know he is going to die someday, but it killed me to think that he is going to leave me one day. I couldn't even get to see him before he died. Agar main uss raat Cabir ke liye railway station nahi jaati, I would have at least taken Satya to a hospital. Would he be surviving for a few more days if I had done that. My conscience tells me that I failed that day. I was so helpless when I saw his cold dead body in his room. I was terrified when I found him dead on his bed. I immediately called Manik but he did not answered the call. Baar baar maine usse phone kiya aur usne mere phone kaat diya. Why didn't he pick up my call that day. Manik, where were you when I needed you the most?

The door bell rang as I was about to change into my night dress. Iss waqt kaun ho sakta hai? I looked at the time and it is almost 11 pm. Someone had ringed the calling bell again. I went till the door and opened. ''Manik!'' I saw him at my doorstep. ''I got ice cream for you'' he said showing it to me. I did not say anything and walked inside. ''Jab bhi hum raat ko milte hai, you ask for an ice cream, it's strange that you didn't ask it now'' he said. ''Everything changes with time Manik, kal tak mujhe ice cream pasand tha aaj nahi'' I said. I don't want to blame him for not being there but I felt lonely when he was not here. I want him with me, always. ''Pasand, na pasand ye sab tho change ho sakte hai, aadatein nahi'' he said serving the ice cream in bowls he brought from the kitchen. Why are you making it so tough for me Manik! I would not be able to resist you anymore. ''Kya soch rahi ho, have it, warna pigal jayegi'' he said getting the spoon to my mouth. Kya karu, main tho already pigal gayi hu.

''Why did you come back?'' I asked him. ''You said you will tell me everything when we meet next time, so here I'm meeting you next time'' he said. ''Manik, itni raat ho gaya, please ghar jao'' I said. ''I've sneaked out of my room to come for dinner, no body knows I'm with you. If I go home now, they will know that I'm not in my room. I had to be out for this night'' he said. ''Would you tell them before going out?'' I asked him. ''I will definitely tell mom before stepping out. I always want them to know my whereabouts'' he said. ''Does they know where you have been the last week?'' I asked him. I never knew where you have been Manik. I missed you very much. ''I'm so sorry Nandini, I had to leave to New York when I knew Siya's condition. Me and Dhruv, we both flied there to check on Siya'' he said. ''Is she alright?'' I asked him. I didn't know Siya was unwell and he went to see her. ''Yes, actually Aryaman and Siya, they pranked us telling that she is sick. They wanted us to come there on the release day'' he said. 

''I was in airport when you called me. I was so worried about Siya and I thought you were just calling for Cabir'' he said. ''If you have known that I called you for Satya, would you come back from air port?'' I didn't know if I could ask him this but I wanted to know the answer. ''I would definitely send someone immediately. I'm so sorry for the loss Nandini'' he said. I know he would have never come back if it is Siya on the other side. Manik would blindly choose Siya over me and this realization is killing me now. I know he is not mine but my heart wants to be with him. Please Manik, prove me wrong, will you ever choose me over everyone? Kya Sid ne jo bola wo sach ho jayega, should I at least hope that you will be mine someday?

''Nandini, you said you will tell me everything when I come back'' he asked me. ''Batana nahi, I will show you something'' I said and went to my room. I came back with a photo album. ''Aur bhi photos hain?'' he asked. ''What?'' I didn't get him. ''Kal raat bhi maine bahut saare photos dekh liya Satya ke room mein, I saw Sid's picture with you and Satya and I was surprised to see him today'' he said. ''Ok, let me show you something'' I said and handed over a photo to him. ''Is this for real!? We already met before?'' he asked as his eyes showed excitement. ''Yes, we have. Do you remember when this photo must have taken?'' I asked him. ''This picture is from an event I guess. I was wearing a suit here, that means a formal event, not for a promotion event I'm sure'' he keeps guessing. ''Organ donation camp! remember!'' I said. ''Oh yeah! my doctor has invited me here. It was a doctors summit and he forced me to come there as a guest. I mean doctors ke event mein, film actors kya karte hai. It might be before 2 or 2.5 years'' he said as he faintly remembered. 

''Yes, even Sid was a member of that summit. When he knew you were the guest, he asked me to join him. It was only after the summit, I could meet you and we took a picture together. You seem to be in a hurry to leave'' I said. ''I was your biggest fan girl Manik. Sid very well knew that, I have come to Mumbai only to meet you then. It was really a dream come true to see you in person that day. That day, Sid proposed to me in the airport'' I said. ''Life is too short Nandini, I can't believe we already met. Did you accept his proposal that day?'' he asked me and I nodded yes. ''Mujhse milne ke khushi mein ha kar diya tumne'' he teased me. ''Of course, he had done that to impress me, it had to be a YES'' I said. ''Poor Sid! I should not have flirted with his wife'' he said. 

''So now you admit'' I asked him rolling my eyes unbelievably. ''I thought of making him feel jealous but main khud jealous ho gaya usse dekh ke'' he said. ''Why were you jealous?'' I asked. ''Look at him! He is so good looking, handsome and he is NRI doctor. He had 2 beautiful girls on a dinner date for him. I was feeling like a third wheel until I realized Shweta as his wife'' he said. ''He told me everything in the morning, they got married a few months ago'' I said. ''So, are you happy? You wanted this from Sid, since so long, he met you, I guess you had a proper closure with him'' he asked me. ''Hum dono ka destiny yaha thak hi thi'' I said. But I can't believe what Sid told me about you Manik. Usko kyu lagta hai ki you like me too. 

''So, I will sleep here then'' he said settling on the couch. ''I hope you don't mind sleeping in Satya's room. You can be more comfortable there'' I said and went to clean up the room. We both have arranged the bed and changed the sheets. ''I'll get a water bottle for you, do you need anything else'' I asked him and he nodded no. I went to my room to sleep but it was too far away from me. I tried to sleep since half an hour but of no use. Ek do din ki neend kharab hui tho mera ye haal hua tho Manik kaise feel kar raha hoga! I went to check on him but thankfully he is fast asleep. I'm so glad that he can sleep well. Aaj kal meri har baat tumse hi shuru aur tum pe khatam ho raha hai Manik. I was so hopeless about you, I know tum kabhi mere nahi ho sakte. 

Tum jo bhi kar rahe ho mere liye, you are doing out of humanity. If there is someone else in my place, either Cabir or Navya, you would have done the same thing maybe. I know you care about the people around you, or maybe Aryaman se tumne promise kiya ki that you will never fight with me. Par mujhe aise kyu lag raha hai ki tum sirf mere liye ye sab kar rahe ho. In a minute, you make me feel like you are just mine, and in the next moment, you ignore me like I never existed. How should I understand you? Why am I turning so selfish that I want all of you only for myself. Kaash tum sirf mere hota, Kaash hum pehle mile hote. I was so hopeless until I hear what Sid said about you. Sid ko bhi ye lag raha hai ki main tumhare liye special hu, just like me, even he thinks that you and I have a connection. Kaash Sid ki baat sach ho jaye. I loved Sid with all my heart but when I saw him today all I noticed is a frown on your face. 

Were you not happy to see me with him Manik? Were you really restless as Sid felt you were. Mere paas sirf sawaal hai tumhare liye, jawab tho tumhe dena padega. For now, I don't have courage to ask you anything. I just wanted to be with you till my last breath. Will you be able to promise me that Manik? You will never leave me like Sid left me! I'm so scared of being with you Manik but you're like a drug and I'm addicted to you. He was in his deep slumber and acha hua he didn't knew that I am next to him. I just want to see his face every morning when I wake up. 

I have kissed his forehead and I wish I could say how much I loved him.