Love will Find The way

Chapter 46- Nandini or Siya?

Manik's POV:

I woke up to a noise and realized it was from kitchen. ''Good morning'' I said as I saw her cooking something. ''Good morning Manik'' she smiled. ''Are you cooking something?'' I asked her as I felt hungry. ''Poha bana rahi hu'' she said. ''Thank God, you are cooking today, I thought you might not'' I have to admit that I was very bad at cooking. ''Groceries order karne ke liye thank you, but why did you order all these veggies when you don't even know ABC in cooking?'' she asked. ''I have ordered a list I found from Google, I thought I could make something which is eatable, but soup ke alawa kuch nahi kar paaya'' I said. ''Soup banaya tumne, wo bhi instant powder mein hot water daalke, I'm impressed atleast tumhe water boil karna aata hai. Warna log tho water: powder ratio ko follow hi nahi karenge'' she said teasing me. ''You don't have to make fun of me, dekhna I will learn to cook one day'' I said. ''All the very best, breakfast table par rakha hai, you can have either green tea or coffee from that flask, I'm going out now'' she said. ''Kaha jaa rahi ho?'' I asked her. ''Look test ke liye mujhe call aaya hai'' she said.

So Nandini is going to find work now. Good to see her moving on and starting afresh. My phone beeped with a message. ''I know you have the keys with you, so have breakfast and lock the door before you leave'' Nandini's message lit up my mood again. If I don't meet Siya today, she would definitely worry about me. I got freshened up and went to her. The place was so silent when I went there. Looks like there's no one at home. ''Sir, ma'am is waiting to see you'' someone from the staff told me. ''Is she here?'' I asked him but he didn't answer. ''Hello, where are you going?'' I asked him but he didn't seem to hear me. I went up to Siya's room and she isn't there too. ''Siya'' I called out for her but no one. It was so unusual for me here.  ''Boom'' there was a loud noise behind me. ''Siya'' I shouted when I looked back and held her. ''What the hell are you doing Siya? Agar tumhe kuch ho gaya tho'' I was terrified at the thought of seeing her hurt.

''Surprise karna chahti thi, ye flower vase tho accidentally gir gaya'' she too looked horrified. Her right hand was slightly cut and blood is oozing out. ''Siya, it is bleeding, let's get a first aid'' I took her to the room and cleaned her wound. ''Siya, please be careful'' I said concerned. ''Manik, I didn't want to bother you but this was all unintentional'' Siya said. ''Agar tumhe kuch ho gaya, I won't be able to live'' I said. ''Manik, please stop it, mujhe kuch nahi hua. Sometimes I feel I'm always helpless and vulnerable. You, are always my savior. I don't want to be always saved, instead I want to be loved'' she said. ''Siya, I loved you yesterday, I love you today and I will always love you'' I said kissing her forehead. Siya and I were always like this. She is fragile and delicate and I always tend to protect and save her from everything. I cannot dare to lose Siya in any case. She is my life but somewhere deep down I knew that Nandini is my love. 

Didn't I discover something strange now. When I'm with Nandini, I couldn't resist myself and when I'm with Siya, I couldn't leave her. Who am I cheating? Nandini or Siya? I can't live without Nandini but I don't want to leave Siya. I felt so stupid after realizing this. I got a call from Aryaman when I wanted to get out from there. ''Siya, I got a call, you please take rest, I'll be back in a while'' I said and left from there. I went straight to my home and locked myself in my room. Nandini or Siya? this question was haunting me. How will I be able to find an answer for this. Who should I ask! I thought of calling Nandini but I don't want to tell her anything. I wanted to be so sure before I talk to either of them. Mom, Mukti, Dhruv, Cabir, Navya, Aryaman who would I want to ask? Aryaman again called me as I didn't take his call earlier. ''Hello'' I answered him.

''Were you busy, I have called you half an hour ago too'' he asked. ''No, I was with Siya when you called me'' I said. ''You would always be with her anyhow'' he teased me. ''Tell me something Aryaman, can someone love two persons at a time?'' I came to the point straight. ''What are you saying?'' he was little shocked at my question. ''I know what I'm asking, but please tell me what do you think about it'' I asked. ''You mean two-timing?'' he asked. ''No, not two-timing, can a man genuinely love two women at the same time?'' I asked him. He did not say anything for a while. Please Aryaman prove me wrong, I can't be two-timing both Siya and Nandini. ''Pyaar ek baar thodi hota hai, so a man can love two women'' he said. ''After Tara's death, did you love someone?'' my question might trigger him but I want to know his answer. ''What rubbish Manik! How can you ask me this?'' he was irritated. ''Please Aryaman, batao mujhe, I need to know the answer'' I begged him. ''Tara ke death ke baad nahi, I never loved any woman in my life other than Tara'' he said. ''Manik, I will take my words back. Pyaar baar baar nahi hota. Agar mujhe kisi aur ho gaya matlab Tara is no more in my life. I cannot forget Tara and I cannot love anyone'' he said and cut the call.

Aryaman was so true, he always loved Tara and she was the only girl in his life. Cabir ke life mein Roshni hai but he still love Navya. Sid ke life mein Nandini thi but not anymore. He moved on from her and now he is in love with Shweta. What do I do now? Should I meet Cabir? Yes, he can answer my question. I rushed to see Cabir and within no time I reached his home and rang the door bell. ''Manik, you here?'' he was quite surprised to see me. ''Cabir, I need to talk to you'' I asked him and gave him no time. ''But Manik'' he was about to say something but I dragged him to his room. When I opened the door, I saw both Navya and Roshni together. It was my turn to be shocked now. I looked at Cabir who was still figuring out what's happening at his home. He pulled me out and took me to his terrace. ''Ye dono yaha kya kar rahe hai'' I asked him. ''Take a wild guess, Roshni brought Navya home'' he said. ''Matlab Roshni ko sab chal gaya Navya ke baare mein'' I asked him. ''Thankfully no, I was also worried when Navya came home'' he said. ''Who do you love? Navya or Roshni?'' I asked him. ''What kind of a question is it?'' he also reacted the same way as Aryaman.

''Tum Navya se pyaar karte ho na then why are you with Roshni?'' I asked him. ''Manik, Roshni is my responsibility I can't back out now'' he said. ''If you were not married to Roshni, would you have accepted Navya's proposal in Kashmir?'' I asked him. ''Roshni ke alawa koi reason hai nahi Navya ko mana karne ka'' he said. Cabir and Aryaman are so right. If you fall for a girl, you will never love a second one. But if you have still fallen for the second one, that means you are not loving the first girl anymore. This is the only possibility they were talking about.

Either my love for Siya is just my sympathy towards her or my love for Nandini is just a physical attraction. In either ways, I'm not cheating them but myself.