90210 (BINI Series #3)

Chapter 40: The Ones We Once Loved

Stacey's POV

The night after the engagement dinner.

"Stacey,  you need to stop."  Gwen held me as she struggled to take away the glass from me.

"Yeah, you had too much already." Jhoanna worriedly added in.

"That's the point girls! I just want to drink so that I would fall asleep for a long time and never feel this pain." I told them and drank another bottle.

"If you believe that she made a mistake, then why don't you do something to prove that to her instead of sulking here like a loser?" Aiah probably pitied me now, but she couldn't help the frustration building in her, thinking how stupid I am.

Why Maloi? Why do you keep on running away from a chance to be with me? Just because what? Just because you're afraid to get hurt again? Here I am, raising the white flag. Giving everything up. I can't fight for her for the last time because I know I'll look more stupid in front of everyone.

I burst out crying again as I hit the table with my fists and downed another shot of tequila. I felt Mikha rubbed my back to ease my pain in any way.

"Guys, she told me she loved me. That I only had to prove to her that I deserve her. I just needed more time ..." I said in between my sobs.

"They're just engaged, Staks! I shouldn't be probably saying this, but if you don't act now, there might not be another chance for the two of you." Colet shook her head and put her arms around Jhoanna who gave her a gentle kiss on her forehead.

"Pwede ba, Jholet? Ang sakit sakit sa mata!" I complained but I started bursting out laughing when I remembered what Colet just said. "Stupid me, I honestly thought she was going to turn him down because she would wait for me. That she would give me one last chance." I slammed my head on my arms as I tried to wipe away my tears.

"Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!" I repeated over and over again as I smacked my head.

"You have to stop!" Sheena shook my shoulder, while the others are crying uncontrollably. "This is not the Stacey we know! The Stacey Sevilleja we know never gives up, she doesn't know the meaning of the word surrender or failure. And, the Stacey Sevilleja we know would never let Maloi go, because she knows that nobody else can love Maloi the way she does." She added.

"It's over, Shee. I lost my chance. This is all my fault. If I had not walked away years ago, then none of this would have happened. We would still be together and I would be the one making her happy instead of him." I took another shot of tequila and I had to cover my mouth as I felt my tears dropping again.

Slamming on my chair, my best friends took all of their efforts to steady me. Seeing that they could no longer contain me, they called my cousin.

"Hello, Jen. Yes, it's Jhoanna. We will drive Stacey home. She's drunk drunk eh but she's okay naman. I'll tell you about it later." I heard Jhoanna said over the phone.

Everything's about to get blurry. Before I close my eyes, I heard Mikha, Sheena, and Colet talking.