Navy Wolf

Chapter 53

In the heart of the forest, 

where shadows meet the light, 

the wolves' silhouettes roam with the grace of silent hunters and the majesty of untamed souls. 

☾ 

"Good morning, beautiful."

I blinked slowly, not being able to tell if I was dreaming or not.
Kaven was wide awake sitting next to me on this wide bed, his hand grabbing the other over his ankled knees, watching me.
"Kaven," I breathed glancing up at him, the sweetness of the sleep still lingering on my eyes. "What time is it?"
„Five thirty a.m.."
"You're up really early," I mumbled, half asleep half awake, rubbing my face against the soft pillow.
"I didn't sleep."
My eyes popped open. "The entire night?"
Slowly he nodded glancing back at the clock.
I pushed myself up to a sitting position reaching for his face. "Are you okay?"
Kaven kept quiet for a moment, staring at me. "Now I am."
I don't know how or why but I felt my heart bloom in its old way again. The feeling that nobody had ever sparked inside me. Driven by pure joy I threw my hands around his neck, feeling his heavy arms close around my waist. I wanted to cry out of bliss so I buried myself into him, while being grabbed even firmer by him.
"I'm so glad you're here."
I smiled into his chest. "Me too."
I released him from my embrace when he pulled in closer. "One more minute," he asked leaning his head against mine.

I could spend the rest of my life in this position.
How much I had missed this.
Unbelievable.
I stayed until he felt ready to let go of me. When he did, he reluctantly released me starting to stare at me again.
"You know, you should stop that," I said feeling shy all of a sudden.
His eyes were in a trance state. „Stop what?"
I sighed.

Feeling sort of uncomfortable I realized I was still wearing what I came here in. My jeans and a simple sweater. Thankfully I had taken my boots off.

Anakin was the one who brought us together again but I couldn't feel grateful. Him admitting that all of this was his fault made me wonder if Kaven knew about this.
Maybe it had been a tactic to convince me to get in the car so he could drive me to Kaven's new place but nonetheless - I would have to ask what that had been about.

"Why didn't you sleep the entire night?" I asked Kaven who was still staring at me like I was a dancing soap bubble.
"I watched you sleep."
"Why?"
A smirk twitched on his mouth. „Because you're pretty and I missed you."
I rolled my eyes. He looked so innocent when he said that - so much so that I wanted to pinch his cheeks. "Please don't ever drink again."
"I'll do whatever you ask me to do, babygirl." With a pleased smile he studied my face again. 

Why do I feel so shy all of a sudden?

The forced distance must have left its traces.

Clearly I had to run warm again when it came to being with him even though I felt safe. The heavy uncertainty over the past couple of months had gnawed on me, weakening my immunity and assurance in this interpersonal relationship.

Not knowing what had happened in the background was a corrosive poison I was forced to drink everyday and now that I was aware, it still weren't enough for me to return to my initial state. I had lost some sort of sense in sincerity.

I felt robotic and uptight. Nothing I did seemed to relax me.

„Anakin told me it had been his fault. Is that true?"

Kaven looked away. „Well, not intentionally, let's put it that way."

I hesitated. „I didn't want to get in the car when he asked me to. I was mad that you hadn't showed up while he did."

With an understanding nod he licked his lips. „I didn't know he had showed up at your place." He huffed, rolled his neck. „I was getting ready to get wasted again. I thought Anakin was napping in the other room when I got home from work. He must have taken the car keys while I was in the kitchen. He didn't even tell me he was going to pick you up. It was a total surprise to me."

I wondered what would have happened if I had never gotten in the car.

Would he have told me that Kaven was about to get drunk again just to convince me? And would he have been able to convince me?

My gaze darted to the clock as an attempt to dodge his eyes. „Aren't you tired?"
"Not around you."

God. I really need to calm down.
I grinned, felt my cheeks heat up. He was so intense in every way possible and I had no chance but hide even though we were in the dark.

I nervously grabbed him by his collar, his black shirt stretching with my pull and I leaned back taking him with me onto the mattress. One of his arm curled tightly around my waist, the other bracing him against the pillow above my head, his face studying mine with an enamoured grin on his lips. I felt long hair strands tickle my skin and I smiled at him while he took in my scent, closing his eyes.
I really didn't know how I survived being away from this man for so long. That rehab phase was literal hell and I'd do anything to keep him close from now on.

And with a shocking revelation to myself I had to admit that I'd even kill if necessary.

His lips hovered over mine but I could see he was busy taking in every detail there was about me.
I didn't even know how he hadn't made this move yet so I grabbed his neck, slowly pulling him down.
He didn't protest.

Instead he let all his weight down on me, kissing me so slowly with so much devotion that I almost went crazy.

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