Healed By Her ❤️

Chapter 35

I wrap my arm around nandini running my fingers through her hair gently, massaging her scalp time to time.

"Manik' she whispers

"Yes baby"

I will never understand why I use such endearments for her or why I can't help but call her 'baby', a word I used to cringe at when I heard couples using it.

I don't know if it's the fact that she is a baby, her cheeks puff up with anger like she is a baby or if it's the way she speaks to me, so free and unhinged

"You aren't in love with her right?" She asks

I sigh a little hearing her, she is doubtful. I tilt her chin up so her eyes meet mine, I want her to know I am not lying and the only way for that is if my eyes are looking in hers.

My eyes would never lie to her, my lips might but my eyes won't.

"I do not love her, I do not love any girl out there. I was jsut teasing you but I promise you, she is nothing to me"

"Then why does she call you babe?"

"I don't know hun, she is someone my mum used against me and I'm sure she is trying again"

she hums in satisfaction

"Are you jealous, darling?" I ask wanting to know what was going on in her head

"I wouldn't call it jealousy but it's a different and weird feeling. I have never felt this before so I am not sure what to call it" she answers honestly

"She doesn't mean anything to me" I repeat one more time

I want her to know that I am not lying, I am very as truthful as I can

"I don't like her, she is so rude and she is fake" I smile hearing her

"She is but do we talk bad about people like that?" I ask

"No" she whispers like a child

"Exactly, and my nandini has a lot of manners and respect so we don't speak like that about anyone" I whisper back kissing her head

Yeah I am aware I said 'my nandini' and guess what, she is mine. she is and she will be forever

"I know but she is mean to me"

"Baby she is mean to everyone"

"Nah ah, she is nice to you and all lovey"

i chuckle at her response.

"Shh aren't you sleepy?"

"Mhm a little, I have had such terrible sleep because of all my headaches" I frown hearing that

"Why do you have headaches?" I asked

"I mhm I am actually not sure at all, but when I am thinking too much, I tend to get them a lot"

'You were thinking?"

"Yeah, I just felt bad that you and I weren't talking. Believe it or not but I missed talking to you, I didn't even have elfie"

"Wow so you missed elfie but not me" I tease

"Oh yeah, elfie and I are tight you know"

"Right" she giggles nodding in my chest

For a while she lays there playing with the hem of my t shirt, I usually would never let touch me, let along lay on me but if it's nandini in question, I don't care

For someone who hates physical touch and for someone who hates being around people, I sure as hell enjoy nandini's presence more than I lead on

"Who is aryaman?" She asks all of a sudden

"A friend" I whisper

"He said you two are best friend and he knows you are upset"

"I am not upset, I am angry"

"Why? He seemed sorry for whatever it is he did plus you know manik, life is so short so instead of living with regrets, just talk it out"

I get what she is saying, i wish I could say a whole lot to my father before he passed away so what nandini just said hits a little close to home

"Thats the thing, I know what he did was a mistake but if he is willing to be manipulated once, he will be again"

I don't wanna tell her everything because she will think I am a coward and her opinions matter to me

"Sometimes it only takes that one time to understand you did wrong. Now I have no idea what the actual situation is but forgive. It's such a weight you put on your chest, your shoulders when you hold a grudge" she mumbles

"How are you so sensible?" I ask

"I drink lots of chocolate milk and coffee too, they are both very very good for brain" she says making me smile

She is so cute!!!

"I will give him a call and sort it out" I whisper kissing the top of her head

"Don't do it because I said, do it because it feels right in here" she says rubbing my chest

"Shh you are talking too much today, sleep" I pat her head

"Hehehe no sir, you just know I am right"

"I won't agree or disagree to that" she giggles which lets me know she knows she is right

"Your father's lawyer" she mumbles

"Not right now baby, we can discuss that once we get back home tomorrow. I need to be in this bubble I am in right now" she hums

She curls into my chest gently, her arms laid on my chest as we both silently watched tv.

I sat there the entire night just caressing her hair, I couldn't sleep, not because I wasn't sleepy but because I knew if I were to sleep, I'd miss out on Nandini's calm breaths.

It is so weird to be in this position, I feel like i am content with her around me but I am also so afraid that I might end up hurting her again or the people in my life will hurt her and I can't have that.