Healed By Her ❤️

Chapter 62

I close my eyes resting my head on the pillow, I am trying not to cry or freak out as those memories really start becoming these fragments, it was almost like I am reliving that night emotionally

That night scared me so much that I pushed everyone but cabir away, not that I had many friends but there were some that were there for money and booze.

hearing the bathroom door twist I open my eyes and find Nandini in shorts and a t shirt. A smile plays on her lips as she walks to me, she doesn't say anything but sits right beside me

Her hand on my chest as she caresses gently, her eyes tell me she is sad, this is exactly why I didn't want to tell her about it. Nandini is so sensitive so I know she is thinking

"Can I tell you something?" She asks

"Yeah, anything" I whisper

"You are so strong, you know Manik not a lot of men will admit to such horrendous incident because they think it will be insulting and it's their fault but you are so so strong for even admitting it"

I nod not knowing what to say or how to tell her that I am so dead inside, I don't feel anything right now but that feeling from that morning when I woke up

"I know it hurts and it feels like you will never get over it but it will be okay. Talk to me, tell me what's going on"

"Have you ever felt a needle going in your arm, maybe while you get a tattoo or something?" I ask her

she doesn't say anything but she does grab my hand placing it on my chest placing hers over mine

"That's what it feels like, a million needles going in and out, in and out of my skin and it's not just in some parts, my whole body tingles with that feeling. I wanna be buried or drowned, it feels disgusting like her hands are still all over me"

Her hand squeezes mine

"Why the fuck do I even feel like this?" I ask

I don't know if she can answer it but I ask anyways

"What you are feeling right now is fair, you are supposed to feel this way, you are hurt"

"No I am not"

"Mani, look at me" she whispers touching my face

I take a deep breath before looking at her

"What she did was not your fault, what she did was her twisted mind. It has nothing to do with you. It doesn't matter how drunk or how high you are, consent needs to be taken every single time, or it has to be pre given. I want you to let it out, just get it all out, once and for all" she says getting up and pulling my arm

"Nandini"

"Shh come on"

"What? I don't feel like going anywhere"

"Mani you trust me right? Come on" she pouts

I got up groaning but I follow as she leads me to the balcony holding my hand

"It's raining nandini" I frown as it starts raining

"you and I are connected, not in a weird blood wise but by these" she whispers touching her heart and then mine

"Nandini"

"When it pours like it is right now, a lot of people get sad, a lot of animals hide for shelter, people run around trying to hide so they don't get wet but none of them lose hope. whether it pours and thunders for one day or five, they do not just give up, they have hope. You know mani, when it rains, the next morning the sun comes out brighter, the stars on the following night fill the sky lighting the whole world up. You can never ever drive out darkness with darkness, only light does that, and right now I know you don't know how to express that pain, you don't know how to tell me what you feel but I promise I can feel it. I know what you are going through so don't think too much okay"