Degrees of Desire (gxg, txs)

chapter sixteen

-Diana

I had taken the time to plan this date perfectly. I wanted to show her the kind of treatment she deserved. This wasn't just going to be a normal date to a restaurant and call it a night. It was going to be a whole experience that I hoped she'd enjoy.

I knew she had millions of questions, but I decided to keep her on edge about the whole plan. I wanted it to be a surprise.

The days had passed by extremely quickly for me, as my excitement for this date had been so intense. I couldn't wait to be done with the week so I could spend time with her one on one.

At school we kept our distance. She'd attend my class and barely looked in each other's direction. During our TA period, we would talk a little more openly but still kept a respectable about of space between us.

I was standing in my closet preparing what I would wear today. I had just gotten home from work. Isabella and I had talked all throughout our TA session. She kept insisting I'd give her a hint on where I'd be taking her later.

I almost gave in. Almost. She is very convincing.

But, I stood my ground and told her she would have to see for herself.

I stood in front of my mirror allowing myself to take in the outfit. I wanted everything to look perfect. I wore black trousers with a black corset top. I opted for a black blazer to go on top with a matching pair of heels.

I hardly took the time to do hair and makeup on a usual day, but today wasn't just any normal day. I curled my hair slightly, it was a little different than my usual straight hair that I always wore.

I've never cared so much about impressing anyone with my looks. I hardly ever tried to dress up for anyone, but for Isabella it was different.

I'd pay to know how she perceives me, how she thinks about me. I craved to understand her in a way no one else could. For her, I'd try.

I sent her a quick text as I was making my way out the door. I gave Luna a few pets before grabbing my purse and heading towards my car.

Nervousness flooded my veins, as if this was the first time I was ever out on a date. It had been a while but why was I this anxious?

In the passenger seat, there was a huge bouquet of flowers that I had ordered for her. I managed to figure out what kinds of flowers she liked. They were pink and white tulips.

It was slightly hard to find them right now as they aren't necessarily in season but I was able to get them for her.

I drove down the empty streets, the darkness was filling the sky. It was 7 pm but it still managed to get dark really early.

When I had parked in front of her house, I sent her a quick message letting her know I was here. I was slightly worried that her parents were going to be curious to see who was picking her up but she assured me they wouldn't.

A part of me still felt what I was doing was wrong. I've tried so hard to get this thought out of my mind. It seemed to disappear when Isabella was near. Her presence reminded me of the reasons why I felt this way towards her to begin with.

I've spent countless amounts of time really reflecting on this. I feel weird. I genuinely feel like what I am doing is wrong. In a way, I feel like I'm taking advantage of her but I know it's not like that. I've been making sure to keep my space and give Isabella the time she needs to figure out if this is really what she wants.

I watched as she opened her front door and walked out. My eyes nearly fell out of my face. She wore a tight fitting red dress, that accentuated her hips and hair very nicely.