Degrees of Desire (gxg, txs)

chapter forty two

-Isabella

Everything's finally back to normal. I feel like so much has been happening this school year that my focus hasn't exactly been on my schoolwork.

My grades had been slipping slightly.

What I mean by slipping is that I had 2 B's. They might have been an 89% but that still is not an A.

I've spent the past week making up work and asking for extra credit in those classes. It wasn't that I didn't know the material, it was just that I missed some deadlines to submit assignments.

I managed to get my grades up since then.

I promised myself that no matter what, I'd keep myself focus on my schoolwork. I couldn't start giving up now.

I'm back to assisting Diana during our TA period. We take the time to grade things and she had even managed to break down the grading process for me.

She's been teaching me so much on how to grow as a writer, giving me tips on my writing style, and it's honestly been super helpful.

I feel very blessed to be able to have her guidance. It really has opened my eyes to see that this really is what I see myself doing. I should be hearing back from schools soon. I applied to a few. I'm really hoping I get accepted to either of my top two schools. They are both good but one is closer, which would be more ideal.

My top choice is a university that is about 3 hours away. I've been dreaming to go there since I started high school. It's actually not too far from where Diana's parents live.

I remember when we went to visit the first time, I couldn't believe at how close it was to their home.

Everything about it is perfect. There's the beach, the writing program is one of the best in the state, and it has such a beautiful campus.

My second choice is my more ideal choice. It's the local university that is about 30 minutes away. It's close to home, I can keep my job, I can stay close to my family and friends, and I could be here with Diana.

I have been trying to make up my mind but I feel like I know which one I want.

My relationship with my friends have been getting back to how it used to be.

We spend all of our free time together like we used to. When I'm not working or with Diana, I'm with them.

I currently am sitting in the car with all of them. We did our Friday night routine of getting fast food and sitting in an empty parking lot to eat and talk.

For the last 30 minutes, I've been finding the courage to finally say what I've really been meaning to say for months.

Elena and I had a conversation earlier this week regarding the whole situation. She promised me she wouldn't tell anyone about Diana and I until I was ready.

She even gave me her honest opinion about the whole situation. She thought it would be best if I told Iris and Nate. She said they would understand and that at the end of the day, they would just want me to be happy.

"Guys. I have something I need to say." I sigh. I turn back around in my seat, making eye contact with Elena.

Elena and Iris sat in the back and both had their eyes on me. From the corner of my eye, Nate was also looking.

"Fuck." I mumbled. "Okay. I think it's time I tell you about my girlfriend. I just need you to promise me something." I began.

Iris nodded with a confused expression and Nate continued shoving his food in his mouth but hummed.