𝗰𝗮𝘁 𝗳𝗮𝗰𝘁𝘀 彡 𝐭.𝐤𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐲𝐚𝐦𝐚 (𝗿𝗲𝗯𝗼𝗼𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘃𝗲𝗿.)

⤷ 50,, goodbye

Kageyama watches as the rain drops fall on the sidewalk when he looks down. He has his hands in his pockets, his hoodie over his head, and a cold look on his face.

He meant everything he said.

Right? Yes, he did. He has to, why else would he say such mean things to you. Well, maybe he didn't mean every word he said, but he doesn't regret what he said.

Because maybe it's all better this way.

He didn't want to be hurt himself and he surely didn't want to hurt you. He just wanted to be friends, not ending up liking you- loving you.

So maybe it's better this way. Maybe not being friends would make things so much better. This way he can't hurt you and this way you can't hurt him in return with your feelings. This way it's better for the both of you– better for everyone.

His face doesn't move a muscle as he walks into the bus that stopped for him. He takes a seat in the back of the bus and looks out of the window.

Today was the last time he would see you, ever. But it's for the best, he keeps telling himself that, even though he doesn't even trust his own thoughts on that.

You two just don't belong in each other's lives, the only thing being friends - or more - would bring, was hurt.

So it's better this way.

He's from Miyagi and you're from Hyōgo, in what world would being friends with each other work like that? Yet alone if you would become more than just friends, it would bring nothing but pain. You can't see each other, you can't spend time with each other, so you would only miss each other. So now that you're not in each other's lives anymore, that won't happen.

You should thank him rather than hate him because this means you won't feel hurt. It may hurt now, but in the long run it definitely wouldn't.

Once upon a time he thought that you'd maybe like him back as more than friends, that the feeling was mutual. Once upon a time he really thought that maybe, even though you two were just friends, could be something more.

Once upon a time.

But once Akaashi confessed to you— something he didn't even think would happen— that feeling went away, because there is no way you would like him than more than friends if Akaashi has a crush on you.

You liked him months ago so who says that wasn't the case anymore? He knew there was a chance you still had feelings for Akaashi.

When those words, those damn words, left your lips, saying that you don't like him but someone else, there was just this little bit of hope left in Kageyama's mind– that little hope that you might like him in the same way as he likes you.

But as soon as you locked eyes with Oikawa –Oikawa of all fucking people– he knew that wasn't the case either.

You like Oikawa.

You never liked Kageyama, and you never will. Your heart has always belonged to someone else– never once it crossed your mind that it could be Kageyama, he's sure of that.

How could he be so stupid for letting his feelings get this far?

Love always hurts.

It always breaks everything and this was no other case of that.

It already started from the start of the party. Kageyama couldn't believe his eyes when he saw you and Oikawa walk in, the guy he hates the most, fucking Oikawa Tooru. But at that moment he still never would've thought that you would like him, that you would go as low as liking someone as stupid and terrible as Oikawa.