Destiny Lawrence
Compton California
January 31st 2023
"Why you trippin'?!" Jayden yelled as we argued. We've been arguing for the last ten minutes because I saw "shoe plug" texting his phone.
You might be thinking I'm crazy because it's just his shoe plug but a shoe plug should not be texting my nigga "are you done with her, i miss you" and sending pictures of her coochie to one of her so called clients.
"Im tripping cause why is you texting bitches Jayden!"
"I don't even know who the fuck that was!" He yelled.
"The number was saved Jayden, I'm not fucking dumb!"
"You saying you not dumb but you sounding dumb as fuck"
"How I'm sounding dumb nigga? The number is literally saved and you have texted her back previously?!"
"Man whatever" he dismissed sitting down, twisting his hair, "believe what you want to believe"
I chuckle, "Im sick of this Jayden, of the way you treat me—I think we should take a break" I said causing him to jump up and storm towards me.
He grabbed my neck and pushed me against the wall aggressively making me groan in pain.
"The fuck you say?" He gritted, gripping my neck tighter causing me to gasp for air.
"ANSWER ME!" He yelled in my face.
"No—nothing!" I gasped out for air.
"That's what the fuck I thought" he said releasing my neck.
"You love me?" He asked after a second.
I nodded my head, "yea, I love you"
"You my bitch?"
"Yes" I spoke lowly.
he smiled kissing my lips.
"I'm sorry for hurtin' you bae, you just made me mad" he utters pulling me into a hug.
"I understand, I'm sorry" I said as tears began to pool in my eyes.
"Aye I gotta go but ima take you out sometime this week" he said pulling away.
"Okay I love you" I said pecking his lips. Instead of saying it back he just walked out.
I know I don't deserve this but I love him and he loves me. I can't just leave him, not after five years.
I go to the bathroom and look at the big bruise forming on my neck. I feel myself starting to cry again. I didn't know our relationship was going to end like this.
When we first started dating he was the sweetest ever, then he started yelling at me, now he's starting to put his hands on me. Even though he treats me like shit, I love him, I can't just leave him. I'm waiting for the Jayden I fell in love with to come back.
After I was done covering my neck in makeup, I walked into my room and called my cousin.
"Hey girlll" she said once she answered.
