Ja'rod Lewis
Compton California
February 8th 2023
"Pass the fuckin' blunt nigga" I demand as irritation laced my voice. I was at the trap chilling and niggas was hogging the wood.
"Shut up impatient bitch" one of them niggas say before passing it to me.
"You still listened tho" I shrugged taking a long pull from the wood before passing it on.
"Aye where the fuckin' strippers at?!" Noodle yelled angrily, waiting for the dancers to perform. We called him noodle cause he was actually fat as fuck.
"They gon kick yo' fat ass out if you keep fuckin' yellin'" puzzle mumbled. They called him puzzle cause nobody knew shit about him, not even his real name.
"Here come da bitches" noodle fat his ass said licking his lips at the women that began dancing.
"They not bitches, they women—get it right fuck nigga" I spoke as I scrolled on my phone. I wasn't interested in seeing the show, I just wanted to smoke.
"Hey sexy" a girl said to me causing me to look up at her. She was pretty, darkskin with a bright white smile.
"Wassup"
"You know I really like what you said to your friend earlier" she smiled, "I really respect that"
I shrug, "its the truth"
"Why don't you come to a private room with me?" She suggests.
"Nah"
Hurt flashed her face before getting a grip, "can I give you my number then?"
"Igh" I said giving her my phone.
"Call me some time" she smiled before walking into the back room.
"Ima fuck with y'all lata'" I said dapping them up and walking to my car. I ain't wanna be in that house all day, it smell like weed and unwashed ass. It be them niggas.
I spend the rest of my day running drills and dealing shit.
I after a while I began to get tired but I knew I wasn't able to get some sleep. Instead of going home I began to drive to my mother's house.
I eventually pull up. I hop out my car and walk up to her door. I unlock the door with the key I have and walk inside, smelling food causing me to walk to the kitchen.
"Hey momma" I said kissing her cheek.
"What you doing hea' boy?" She automatically asked making me smack my teeth.
"Ion get no 'hi' or nothin'—you so rude" I said washing my hands and grab a pork chop and eating it.
"You come hea' to eat my fucking food?" She says making me laugh.
"Nah I wanted to see how you was doing, I ain't seen you inna while"
"Awn my baby boy missed his mommy" she says to me. I smacked my teeth cause I knew she was clowning me.
"Damn I can't miss you no more the hell" I said making her laugh.
"Whew chile I am funny—anyways how's my grand boy?"
"He good, fat as fuck and he look just like Damari and yo' sperm donor" I said referring to my brother and my father.
"Stop calling your father that ja'rod" she rolled her eyes.
"Ain't you too old ta' be rolling them eyes, fuck around they fall out from old age and dryness" I joked. I could joke like that with my mother cause she had me when she was nineteen and my older brother at seventeen, so it's like we grew up together.
"Don't eat no more of my food" she glared at me making me chuckle, she continued to stare at me before speaking, "you been sleeping?"
I sighed knowing this was gonna come up sooner or later, "yea" I mumbled before grabbing another pork chop.
"Mhm you don't like it, you know how I know you haven't bee sleeping"
"How"
"Cause you look like shit" she said making me straight face her.
"You play too much" i said shaking my head.
"Oh im not playing, you look dead inside—go clean up and stay here tonight"
"Nah ima head out soon" I said getting a cup of red kool-aid.
"Nigga shut the hell up and spend the night, you look awful and I'm not letting my son walk around like this" she said walking upstairs.
I shake my head at her aggressive ass tone and walk upstairs to take a shower. Twenty minutes passed, I'm out the shower and as soon as I hit the bed, I'm out.
I was able to get two hours of sleep before waking up in a cold sweat. I had seen the image of my Brothers body at the morgue again.
He was cut up by the bullets and his eyes were gray like he was blind. I walk downstairs to get a glass of water, only to see my mother sitting in the living room, watching tv.
"What you doing up?" She asked.
"Couldn't sleep" I mumbled.
"When you gon' stop lying boy, you could sleep a few minutes ago but now you can't, what's going on?"
I rubbed a hand down my face, "I saw damari again" I said making her frown.
"Try going back to sleep in my bed, I'm not coming up anytime soon" she said.
"Nah—shut the fuck up and go back to bed" she cut me off.
I walk back upstairs and get into her bed. I felt an odd comfort wrap around me like a blanket but dosing back off.
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