Ja'rod Lewis
Compton California
December 19th 2023
It was currently two-thirty in the morning as I sat in the living room smoking a blunt. I raised my eyebrows at the tv which showed poetic justice. For some reason I couldn't sleep, I mean I felt with insomnia before but this...this different.
My head turned as I heard a door open and close. I sigh knowing it was Destiny. Hearing her footsteps getting closer, I quickly ash my blunt before spraying some air freshener.
"Baby?"
"Yea?" I responded.
"Why are you out here?" She stood in front of me, rubbing her eye.
"Couldn't sleep" I mumbled.
"Why?" She said sitting next to me.
I wish she would've stayed in the room
I licked my lips before responding, "ion know—why you up?"
She let out a sigh before responding, "I went to go lay on you but all I felt was bed"
"Mmm" I hummed, "go back to sleep"
"No I'll stay out here with you" she mumbled before yawning.
"Go ta' sleep, I'a be there in a few"
"Tell me what's on your mind—is it your mom?"
"Nah" I lied, "go back to sleep and ima be there in a minute"
"Okay" she pecked my lips before walking back to my bedroom. i let out a sigh before standing up and turning off the tv and walking towards my bedroom.
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11:37 am
"You get some sleep baby?" Destiny asked looking towards me.
"Mhm" i lied before looking down at her, pecking her lips. I didn't get one second of sleep last night but i didn't want to worry her or hear her mouth about some shit. I have a lot on my mind and I honestly don't feel like talking about it.
She would've asked me to express myself and I would've said no and then it would've turned into an argument and then she would've started crying. And even though I love her, I'm sick of her fucking crying and I can't take that shit right now. Not while my momma is sick.
Plus She didn't need that stress on her, considering she was almost two months pregnant.
"We have an appointment tomorrow morning" she mentioned.
"What time?"
"Ten"
"Aight I'll be at yo' place 'round eight-thirty, sum' like dat"
She furrowed her eyebrows before speaking, "im not spending the night?"
"Nah, when I get back ima drop you home—that cool?"
"I mean yea but I just thought I was staying the night again"
"I just need ta' handle sum' fa' a few days" I spoke.
"Oh okay"
"It ain't nothin' 'bout you mama, I just gotta handle some business" i said before pecking her lips, "take care of my kids, yea?"
"I will" she said before her small smile fell into a deep frown, "please be careful"
"Always—igh I luh you"
"I love you too"
"Bye daddy!" Kaiser exclaimed.
"Bye lil nigga" i replied as i walked towards my car. Destiny watched me pull off before I seen the door close causing me to let out a sigh.
