two doors down

the stay

not proof read

y/n pov

my arms felt like weights by my sides. i had no thoughts in my head other than i needed to get out of here. there was no locks no doors no handles no corners no nothing. they had made me do all these things and answer so many questions. i figured since i was already here i might as well be honest. 

i have to stay here for 4 days and if i dont improve its longer. the bandages on my arms were tight, the paper scrubs we had to wear were uncomfortable. after 2 days i can wear other clothes. 

i dont need help. i dont need to be here. lizzie was wrong. 

i stared at myself in the wobbly clown mirror. tear-stained cheeks dark eyes. i was looking at myself but i didnt feel like myself. 

my hair was in two braids i had a shower, which i had to have a staff member in the bathroom with me so as disgusting as it sounds thats my only shower till i leave. 

it was dinner time by now and we were all in our seats no one was talking but these other kids. you were sectioned by your issue. i hate it here. 

they handed out our dinners and i stared at it knowing i dont have the option to get it out of me and i cant not eat it. 

staff members were around my table helping other patients through it. this lady walked up to me sitting beside me. i read on her name tag that her name was claire. she tried to have a conversation with me but i couldnt respond. 

we werent allowed to leave until we had eaten an adequate amount. i was one of the last people to leave and that woman sat beside me the whole time. after she realised i didnt want to talk she just sat beside me for support. 

i ate until they told me i could leave. but once i left i was taken to this room with a bunch of beanbags and everything. it was full of other people i had seen at dinner and there was staff everywhere again. this honestly is starting to feel like a prison. 

i still hadnt said a word to anyone but i sat down at the craft section. there was only toddler crayons to draw with but some girl informed me theres usually more if you go to arts and crafts in the morning. i guess they dont keep everything out. 

i grabbed one of the crayons starting to draw at least there was one normal thing here. i drew to distract my mind from the one thing i wanted to do. i could hear a girl start sobbing as she was taken by a staff member somewhere else. 

i stared out the window at the night sky around us. there was no other building in sight. just alot of grass and trees. 

an hour later we were walked to our rooms and it was like a prison drop off. when i got to my room i laid in bed but i couldnt sleep. how can i sleep in a place like this. 

thats what it was like for the next 3 days. the same cycle the same repeat. i was in group right now, i still havent said a word while being here. but those people were right this place does not help. ive only learned worse things from other patients talking. 

"y/n?" i hear my name be called behind me. "theres people here to see you" 

lizzies pov

we were finally able to visit y/n so nervously mattie and i got in the car, monica and rose wanted to come but didnt want to overwhelm her. in the two hours it took us to get there mattie had told me just about every fact he knew. 

signing in we were taken to this room to wait. "i will warn you she hasnt spoken the entire time, but she is doing better i think shes on schedule to leave in the next few days" 

when she walked in with another nurse my heart broke. her eyes lacked emotion and i could see the redness on her face from constant crying. her eyes were dark and she was wearing basic long clothes. 

mattie ran up to hug her and i didnt know what she would do. she picked him up in a hug as she walked the rest of the way to me. she put mattie down and i didnt expect her to hug me. i left her here. 

but she did. she wrapped her arms around me and buried her head into my shoulder. i hugged her back feeling her ribs through the shirt. i should have known before it got this bad. 

i waited for her to pull away first but she didnt let go. not until mattie started to try and talk to her. "this place is so weird" he said taking a seat. she nodded rubbing her eyes. 

"they say your doing better, do you think so?" i asked trying to get a conversation out of her. she shrugged bringing her knees up to her chest. 

"why arent you talking" mattie asked her. "did you forget how to?" he asked so innocently y/n couldnt help but let out a laugh. 

"no mattie i didnt forget" she said, her voice was more horse than usual from not speaking for days. i smiled at her and she looked up at me and gave me a sad smile. i continued asking her questions and she have me a shrug or short answers. mattie was too busy reading the new comic she had made him. that is seriously the cutest thing ever. 

soon it was time we had to leave so we said our goodbyes and i gave her another hug. "im okay lizzie" she said to me once she pulled away. 

"ill see you in two days"