two doors down

just hanging out

"you're really good at drawing" she said looking at my book.

"thank you" i said putting my pen down and stealing lizzie's water bottle since i was out of mine.

when she was finished explaining she handed me the out of class pass. "you can go fill your water in the teacher lounge and get my printing while you're at it" she said and i got up glad to walk.

"i'll be back" i whispered to lily. after my side mission i went to the bathroom and kind of just stared at myself in the mirror. i looked disgusting. my cheeks looked hollow, maybe because i felt like shit. i took the long way back and stopped by the art room to borrow some markers and when i finally got there mum thanked me gave me a slightly questioning look but let me sit back down.

"are you in this class or just here for fun" she questioned when i sat down continuing to draw not doing work what soever. 

"i was gonna be home sick today but they're doing pest shit so lizzie-" i stopped when she gave me a confused look "miss olsen made me come here instead, ive been on this couch all day" i told her and she nodded. "this is a weird question, but where do you live? usually we know about new people before they get to school because everyone knows everyone" 

"oh i live with my dad just out of town, got kicked out of my last school for smoking a little too much pot before a science test" she said honestly. "i dont even do drugs i just wanted to try something new" she shrugged and i nodded, fair enough. 

she handed her work in when the bell went. "ill see you around?" she asked as she had to head to her next class. 

"yeah" i nodded with a smile. she smiled and left. 

"one more class hun" lizzie said when i laid on the couch groaning. she had a spare right now but she couldnt go home for some stupid reason. but i easily watched tiktok for the hour without struggle. 

on the way to the car park i noticed lily getting into her brothers car and i smiled and gave her a small wave. she did the same and winked at me before getting in the car. i smiled and dragged myself to the passenger seat. rose and mon got in the back seat and we started our way to scarletts house. when we got there scarlett had just pulled in with the boys who came running out excited to eat and have some free time. 

i went to "my" spot on the couch and continued my drawing. "thats looking good" lizzie said handing me a bowl of sliced apple. 

"thank you" i muttered only for my flow to be interrupted when rose and mon came standing infront of me. "what do you two want" i said eyeing them suspiciously. 

"for you to come out for a drive with us" monica said holding up her keys. 

"i dont know" i really didnt feel social.

"come on we're going to get lily and show her around" rose said pulling me up from my spot on the couch. 

"let me grab my hoodie" i groaned and they cheered i ended up getting changed brushing my hair and putting my perfume on since i hadnt done that today. 

"since when have you gotten ready to hang out with us" rose said when i came downstairs. 

"shut up i felt gross" i said and we said goodbye to our family before getting into monicas car. it was a 25 minute drive to her house and she was on the deck waiting for us. 

"hey guys thank you for getting me" she said getting in beside me. "hi y/n" she said her tone a little more breathy, a little more unstable. almost like shes nervous. 

"hey lily" i said back in the same tone. we stared a little too long till rose asked where were headed first. monica suggested food and rose instantly agreed. i looked out the window as everyone fell into an easy conversation putting my thought in when spoken to. 

we all got out of the car and headed into the almost empty mcdonalds, pretty much the only food chain in this place. everyone ordered on the screen what they wanted. i ordered a large no sugar coke from the counter as it means they would just make my drink and hand it to me. 

i waited with the others and once they all had their food we found a booth. "is that all you got" monica asked me quietly. 

"im not hungry" i said and she sighed but didnt push me. i then look over to the athletes who had 4 burgers and a 20 pack of nuggets between them both. maybe i should get into track like rose said. all the running would be so good for my body and i could eat more because of it. 

"y/n?" rose said and everyone was looking at me. 

"i asked if you were coming to our game on saturday" she said raising an eyebrow. 

"yeah i think so" 

"and we have the art showcase this friday" mon added and my head snapped to her. 

"what?" 

"the showcase, 3 paintings, 1 realism drawing, and 2 pieces of whatever we want, girl sir told us multiple times, we cant put in anything weve done before" 

"guess im spending my lunch breaks painting again" 

"oh my god i remember when we were in there every day" i nodded and finished my coke opening it to eat the ice. 

after everyone finished rose leant back in her chair and patted her stomach "sensational feast" she claimed. after that we were just driving around listening to music. we passed the road where i got hit by a truck and an old wave of nostalgia ran over me. not the good kind. but the kind where i remembered how i used to hide bruises every day at school, how i was out every single night to avoid being home, how i tried to od in a park, how my dad used to belittle everything i did. all of it.