two doors down

overwhelmed

y/ns pov (the next day at school)

i was walking into school and lily came up beside me. "hi" she smiled sipping a coffee. she was a little taller than me. okay like half a head taller than me and had pink strands underneath her blonde hair. it looked good.

"hey" i smiled and we walked idk where she was going but i had art.

"yo skeleton who's your new friend" i just kept walking but mason followed. "hello? im talking to you" i got pushed into a locker.

"and im ignoring you" i said continuing to walk. the principal walked passed so he fucked off finally and lily gave me a worried look.

"they always like that?"
"haven't been that bad for a while" i shrugged.
"and they call you skeleton?"
"you didn't see me last year" i said stopping by my class. she gave me a warm smile and kept going. i just know she was gonna find out about everything that happened last year and i don't want her to think of me differently.

i put my headphones on and took my spot next to monica as everyone was busy on their paintings.

i was focusing on painting light. it's a cool concept i wanted to play with so i drew my old house. the way the rain glimmered in the street light. the boarded up window my dad smashed through. and mattie's stuffed bear sitting wet on the curb. squished into the ground.

"as talented as always" sir said walking around. i nodded absentmindedly and kept working. it was coming together well.

i have paint all over me but i worked through break and had to go to my next class. pe.

mon, rose, and lily were all in this class i got to sit out whenever i want because of the whole sunnyvile thing so that's exactly what i was doing today.

lily was also on the sidelines "pe not your thing?" she asked sitting own next to me.

"not at all, i'm thinking of joining track though"
"you should! i just joined aswell"
"so you're doing signature soccer and track, you must love sports"
"yeah i used too swim too but you guys don't have a swim team" she smiled and i nodded fair enough.

we talked not a lot but about enough different things that time went by quickly. "why are you sitting out if you like sports so much?" i asked picking paint from under my nails.

"when you represent the school you're allowed to sit out on pe and stuff incase of injury, rose just likes playing badminton clearly"
"i couldn't think of anything more boring" she laughed and i just looked at her side profile smiling to myself. i know i shouldn't.

"i tried to stalk your instagram last night but i couldn't find you"
"oh my account has like 4 followers, i only just remade it" i said pulling out my phone to show her. she gently took it from my hand and rested it on her knee as she pulled it up on her phone.

"perfect" she smiled accepting her request on my phone and handing it back. "aren't you hot it's like an oven in the sun" she said and i shook my head following her to the shade. pulling my sleeves over my hands.

not long later the class finally ended and we followed everyone else back to the locker rooms even though we didn't have to get changed. we had early dismissal and went to the lunch room to get everyone's food.

we sat down with everything and the others joined us thankful. i had some fruit and a juice waiting for this day to be over.

i fiddled with my phone case and when monica noticed she took my phone from my hands. knowing me all too well.

next lily and i walked to our english class and i did not want to do it.
when i sit down in my spot we all find 3 pieces of paper on our desks.

looking at the board the task is to write a story about the moment that changed your life.

i couldn't pick one.

there's so many moments that changed me that i don't know which one most changed me.

i guess ill do when my dad went to far hit my brother and got out i guess.

most kids experience love from a young age, the warmth of their mothers hug or getting spoiled on christmas. these were things i grew up without.

no tree to decorate, no mum to hug, just me, my dad, and a sort of anger that always lingered in the house...

i got really in the zone and ended up writing 700 words in 28 minutes. soon enough i finished all 3 pages and paused at the end. i wrote about so much. i folded it neatly and put it under my book so no one could read it. it felt like a diary. a confession of something i don't like to talk about.

lily was tapping her pen on the paper she had written a lot too but she seemed stuck. i looked out the window and saw storm clouds covering the skies.

i started sketching ideas for my other artworks i had to do i'll do them tonight probably. my foot was bouncing and i was getting irritated. it's probably because im hungry and tired and pissed off i guess.

"do you have any food on you?" i asked lily she looked up like i had broken her from a trance.
"no i usually buy all my food sorry" i could tell she felt bad.

"nah it's okay" i said putting my head down.

at the end of school i went home with lizzie and went straight to my bedroom. i was pacing. my mind was racing and i had urges to do things i hadn't done in ages.

like it's been months i think. i stare at my phone on the bed. then i take the case off