two doors down

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next week

i had a horrible feeling in my stomach for today. i was genuinely glad i had school today just so i had something to distract me all day. i didnt pack any of my things up from lizzies house. i knew we would be back soon enough. people never change.

i didnt talk all morning, even mattie wasnt that talkative. lizzie didn't try and get me to have breakfast today and even if i was hungry i wouldn't be able to stomach it.

tonight's the first night we stay with our parents. 3pm today till 5pm tomorrow. it's going to be a long day.

i got in the car with lizzie as she drove to mattie's school first sending him off with a hug. after that it was a quick drive to our school where we pulled up but didn't leave the car.

"if you need a break just come to my room" lizzie told me resting a hand on my shoulder i nodded squeezing my shaking hands before i heard the first bell ring.

we got out of the car lizzie had a spare first so she was heading to the teachers lounge while i headed to art.

i found monica waiting outside the room for me and when she sees me she greets me with a hug. i don't have the energy to hug back but she lets go before i can even react pulling me inside.

"you okay?" she questioned with her head tilted. i nodded and we listened to sir as he explained todays prompt.

"draw your desk buddy in your own style" he said and i tucked my feet up under me beginning to work. i had drawn monica countless of times so it was pretty easy.

she looked up at me every now and again grabbing my chin to analyse my face but still i didn't say anything.

15 minutes in sir comes round asking his usual questions but i stay focused on my work. once i draw monica in her usual outfits on different angles i have 5 monica's on my page and slide it over to her resting my head on the desk.

i plug in my earphones listening to music for the last 20 minutes of class. i dunno how long later but i feel a hand on my back making me jump. as my eyes meet monica's she shoots be a concerned look.

then i notice everyone else getting up and realised i must've kissed the bell.
standing up and packing my stuff i hold monica's hand as she leads me to first break.

once we sit i rest my head on her shoulder closing my eyes. she holds my head to rest on her lap instead as i shift to my side to fall asleep in a more comfortable position.

she gently scratched up and down my arm as i fell into a rewarding slumber.
that is until the bell woke me up.

next break

"you still haven't spoken all day, whats happening?" she asks at second break.
i pull out my phone showing her the reminder on my lock screen.

hell hole - 3pm friday -5pm saturday- social worker there friday.

she nodded understanding the situation and grabbed my hand as we walked. we went to the library and laid down on one of the booth couches.

i laid my head on her lap with my knees up looking at the painted ceiling tiles. suddenly rose and her friend april come up to us sitting on the other side of the booths after asking if they could join us.

i sit up with a yawn resting my elbows on the table so it didn't seem like i was ignoring their conversation.

"y/n we get our science grades back today" rose said once they moved onto the topic of grades.
i nodded at her still not saying a word and looking at the table .

time skip to the end of the day.

i met lizzie in the car pack a couple minutes after the bell had gone and she gave me a small smile hoping in.

"if anything happens you come straight back okay" she reminded me. "you have the spare key so just come right in"

i subconsciously moved my hand to where the handprint of a bruise was on my arm. and stared at the road as we pulled up to mattie's school.

once we got home the boy was almost in tears clinging to lizzie's hug. we walked into the house and our social worker sat on the couch. it was aprils mum actually.

apparently she wanted to see how we acted as a family so we had to play a board game.

it was the most awkward board game of my life.

mattie was cautious for every move even when he won he didn't celebrate. my had held up his hand to high-five the boy.

who visiblely flinched at first. i saw an anger flicker behind his eyes and see the worker writing something clearly not seeing what just happened.

after the bored game we cooked dinner as a family and the worker decided we were settling in enough to stay forever and left. left like she didn't just send us to our death beds

"ARE YOU TRYING TO SEND ME TO JAIL BOY" he shouts once her car drives away. he grabs the boys wrist and slaps mattie across the face.

instantly tears brim in his eyes as he holds his sore cheek. my dad shoves him away grabbing all the cooked dinner for him and whatever my step mums name was and leaving the kitchen. screaming for us to clean it.

i kneel down and mattie crashes into me sobbing as quietly as he could. i look at his red face seeing a spot where my fathers ring had grazed his face.

i stood up with him clinging to me sitting the boy on the bench and handing him an ice pack as i started cleaning.  but mattie quickly said something that made me stop.

"we go to lizzie now right"

a/n
i just finished a 9 hour shift kill me now