two doors down

the resturant

not proof read

y/n pov
it was friday afternoon now and lizzie should be back home soon. i was sitting on the couch freshly showered eating a bowl of cut up cucumber and salt. rose was watching gilmore girls when all of a sudden the front door opened.

i spun around and lizzie was standing there with her bags. i jumped up quicker than i could think and mattie had already ran over and hugged her. i rushed over to her but didnt know if i should hug her. she holds her other arm out to me and i took a step closer.

it took me a second but i wrapped my arms around her waist and rested my head on her shoulder. "i missed you lizzie! look scarlett did my hair. OH and y/n made me another spidermattie comic-" he kept catching lizzie up who nodded along wrapping her other arm around me once mattie started running around.

i honestly didnt want to let go. scarlett came in and i found out we were all going out to dinner tonight. i guess thats why scarlett was telling the boys to clean up and not play outside tonight. i went upstairs with rose since i didnt have any fancy clothes.

scarlett and lizzie were downstairs i could hear them talking as we got ready upstairs.
"make your pick" rose said showing me the options of fancy clothes.

i picked a simple slim fitting dress and rose offered me a cardigan which i happily took.
rose then got changed herself before cursing out her soccer tan lines.

high sock and shirt tans were very visible i couldn't help but laugh a little.
"shut up you" rose said grabbing a cardigan herself since it really was cold tonight.

she then told me to live a little and put makeup on me. she was like a sister to me at this point.

we walked downstairs to everyone else ready and the boys were in matching button ups. and black pants.

scarlett whistles as we walk down.
"you look beautiful girls" she commented "but we will be late so chop chop" with that we were all rushed out of the house and into their family car.

it being a 7 seater the boys dibs the back seats and are climbing in before we can argue.

i'm shoved in the middle as rose is on my left and lizzie is on my right.
tired i rest my head on lizzie's shoulder and she places a hand on my knee.

we were driving to the restaurant for what seems like ages. we had left our small town. and i was asking lizzie about her trip. she said it was boring but she was happy to be back. she asked me about school.

"what sub did you guys have in english?" she questioned and i paused.
"i don't remember?"
"you had english last session today" she raised her eyebrows at me.
"i know, i just don't remember her name"

"that's odd, i remember being told it was a male substitute"
"last minute changes" i was lying out of my arse and i knew she was going to find out.

luckily colin pulled into the restaurant. it was a Vietnamese place on the river front. i see why we had to dress fancy now.

we walked in and i was so nervous. they took us to our seats. a nice outdoor table where we could see the river. after being handed our menus we were left alone for a bit.

"are we doing entrees?" cosmo asked. at his age i didn't even know what an entree was.

"yeah im pretty hungry?" scarlett looked around the others for an agreement.

"do you want to share the plate of spring rolls?" i hear lizzie ask beside me. i nod simply and a waitress comes over taking our first orders.

as we wait for that scarlet requests family photos. i offer to take them expecting it to just be the 4 but they wanted all of us so she asked some random lady.

i see where rose gets the confidence.

the poor lady is taking photos of all of us just the boys just the girls the adults the kids the whole lot.

we thank her and return to our seats. never have i done any of this family stuff. it's so weird.
the food came and everyone was talking. i don't understand how they never run out of things to talk about.

later cause i don't know what to write

in the car after the restaurant i feel bloated from the amount of food i ate. it doesn't take alot for me to feel full anymore but lizzie wouldn't let me go to the bathroom.

i have my hands on my stomach uncomfortably. i need it out. it was a long ride home. i don't know if i could wait that long.

rose is glued to her phone. texting monica no doubt. i stared ahead the entire drive until scarlett dropped us home.

the second we got inside i faked yawned and said i was going to have a shower and go to bed.
i couldn't use the toilet that would be to obvious. i lift up the shower drain taking my clothes off.

turning the shower on i stick my fingers far down my throat. it doesn't take a lot anymore either.
soon the contents of my stomach is gone. i pour soap down the drain to mask the smell and close it back up sighing to my self.

i start crying because i was trying to get better. one emotion leads to the other and soon im bleeding again.

a/n
i think im going to end this book on 100 chapters