two doors down

new place

tw not eating

y/n pov

miss Olsen led us into her house and I was glad I had been here before otherwise I would have felt more out of place than I already do. By now it was closer to 5 and the sun was setting. She lead us down the hall "I only have one other room but it has 2 beds" she explained opening the door to a nice sized room with two single beds in either corner as well as a long desk between the two.

I dropped my stuff at the bed furthest from the door trying to stay on my feet. I haven't eaten in a few days but I still don't have an appetite. She explained her room was on the other side of the house and the door to the right of our room was the bathroom.

"can I have a hot shower" mattie asked with a smile. "of course you can matthew" mattie grabbed her hand and they left down the hall. I sat down on the floor taking deep breaths.

A minute later lizzie walked back into the room. She looked at the room confused before her eyes drifted to me sitting on the floor out of sight from the door. She walked over and knelt infront of me. I could tell she wanted to physically comfort me but was scared considering what I just came out of. "how are you y/n? and don't just say your fine" her tone was so soft something I was not used too.

"I'm okay really, its not my first time going through this. But um can I go on a walk it will only be 2 hours" I asked lizzie. I really needed to clear my head and process this past week. She gave me a sad smile which told me her answer was no.

"im sorry sweetheart, I was told you needed to rest tonight. That means no long walks and we dont expect you to go to school tomorrow either" lizzie explained making me rest my head on the wall behind me in frustration. "how often do you go on long walks like that?" she asked seemingly to genuinely want to know more about me.

"every day if I can" I explained

"so your rarely at home?" oh so shes just doing this to know more about my home life.

"not if I can help it" I sighed. "only to sleep" but then again I don't even do that.

she hummed and looked at me sympathetically. she sat down infront of me and looked like she was thinking. "what do you feel like for dinner"

"oh i'm not too hungry but mattie must be starving so he will eat anything" it's like the world wants to betray me as after i said that sentence my stomach started to make noises.

"y/n-" lizzie was cut of my mattie calling my name from the bathroom. using the wall and bed frame i pushed to my feet before she could question me. i took a step and almost fell over again but kept my ground and walked out of the room.

"can you get my pyjamas please. i'm sorry i forgot them in my bag" he said from behind the door. i went back into the room and could feel lizzie watching my every move. i grabbed the bluey pjs and handed them to mattie who retreated back into the bathroom.

"i'll just make some chicken and rice, something easy" lizzie stated standing up tall.

"yeah he will eat that" i sighed sitting on the floor again. i don't deserve sitting on the bed right now.

"so will you y/n" she said slightly sterner then before. i looked at her with probably not a pretty look and she let out a breath. "sweetheart. when's the last time you ate"

i looked away from her gaze grabbing some things to have a shower. i knew if i spoke i'd spill and she would lecture me like monica. she says it's out of kindness and all that. lizzie said my name again but i ignored her. she walked over to me but mattie came into the room.

"i'm going to go have a shower" i mumbled checking i had my phone with me. it was dead but that's not why i needed it.

i walked into the bathroom admiring the cleanliness and overall aesthetic of the place but it had that after shower feel when someone had just been in here.

i turned the shower on to warm up for a second while taking my clothes of. this was the first time in days i had looked at my body. bruises littered my torso and legs.

i found makeup wipes on the bench and grabbed one wiping the makeup off my face and arms.

i took a long look at myself and started crying. i got in the shower feeling the burn from the water that was way to hot. it turned my skin red. but i didn't care. i scrubbed at my skin hardly. i felt like i was finally washing away everything from this week.

5 minutes later i realised how much water i was using and quickly turned the shower off. i got out of the shower taking in my appearance once again. i just looked more dead if that was even possible.

i did what i needed to do before putting on a plain pair of sweatpants and black long sleeve shirt. i ran my hands over my face again before walking out of the bathroom. i had no more makeup to cover up the bruises so what happens happens.

walking into my room i noticed no one was in there but that's when i heard talking coming from the kitchen. i grabbed my charger from my bag plugging it into the wall and putting my phone on charge before venturing out to the main area.

"yeah i usually stay in y/ns room though. she lets me sleep in her bed cause she's barely ever there. it's like she's nocturnal. i'm learning about nocturnal animals in science it's really cool actually-" mattie was talking a lot as any kid does but the first part of his words scared me what else has he been saying.

when i fully walked in he noticed me and made a sad face. "see she's always purple" he pointed at me causing lizzie to spin and look at me. she gasped when she saw me and my face dropped.

what the fuck is he telling her.

a/n
2 days in a row what a rare thing.
might do another ngl

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