two doors down

gone and away

tw abuse, death

the bell just went and everyone rushed out of the classroom. i didnt really pay attention to the experiment, i should have. it was for our assessment but i dont really care. "come on ashtons driving you home" not having the energy to complain i follow her.

we walk out of the science buildings and start moving through the school to the car park where she usually gets picked up.

"like i love her, but not that much yknow?" monica was gossiping to me about this girl that keeps sitting with us at break. she talks to her in class but one day her friends were away so she sat with us and ever since she keeps sitting with our friends like even when we're not there.

"yeah i know what you mean" i replied watching my feet as i walked.

"like it gets to a point where theres too much of someone. i fell like i cant talk to the others cause she always joins the conversation. like i love her and i want to hang out with her but not all day everyday" i nod along with what shes saying and get in the back of ashtons car.

"girl drama?" he questions i nod and monica stops talking about it now her brothers here. as we pulled out of the school there was an ambulance rushing away from the school. someone probably just broke their arm and over reacted. other than that the drive was quiet but when we pulled up to my street monica turned to me talking quietly.

"please be safe tonight. don't go walking or riding, please just get a good nights sleep. you need it my love" she looked at me with that same concerned look she gave me earlier today. i nodded but when we pulled up to my house no one seemed to be home. not even my grandparents car.

"yeah i'll try" "no you will get a good nights sleep, bed by 930" she warned gently. knowing she means well i agreed and got out of the car thanking ashton and saying goodbye to them both i wondered inside and called out trying to see if anyone was home.

"Y/N!" mattie ran up to me and hugged my legs. it looked like he had been crying

"mattie? hey whats up" i bent down to his level and he wrapped his arms around my neck. he pointed at me and i was more confused.

"g-gran and pop...crash...your dad um" he was really panicking now and i wrapped my arms around him in a hug.

"hey its okay mattie... wheres your mum, do you know where she is?" he nodded and told me she went with my dad. still not knowing all thats happened i grab my phone and call my dad.

"y/n! this is all your fault" he whisper yelled at me.

"how is this my fault, i dont even know whats happened"

"my parents are dead beacuse of you" that sentence made me stop breathing.

"what?"

"they were in a crash y/n. all because they wanted to surprise you at the end of the day with icecream. so its all your fault"

 i started crying. two of the only people who cared about me are dead. and as much as i hate it it is my fault. they just wanted to do something nice. instead their gone.

after yelling at me some more my dad hung up on me when he sounded like he was starting to cry himself. i know i promised monica but i need to go out, but i cant leave mattie. "im sorry y/n" mattie said hugging me tightly.

"why are you sorry buddy? " i questioned him he shrugged and i sunk into the wall with him still clinging to me.

i dont know how long we were like that but eventually the front door swings open and since i havent moved and im directly in my dads view. he is beyond angry. his face is red from anger and his own tears probably. i swear i had never seen my dad cry. or maybe once when my mum walked out on us.

"mattie go to my room" i whispered to the 7 year old. he shook his head thinking if he stayed here he wouldnt hurt me.

instead my dad grabbed his arm and yanked him away from me. i watched as his face was overtaken with a look of pain and i knew how tight my dad was grabbing his arm. he shoves the boy to the floor and mattie scrambles away running to my room. i felt so bad for him he doesnt deserve to grow up here.

"YOU" he turns back to me and grabs me by the throat lifting me to my feet. instantly my air was cut off and i was clawing at his hand with my nails. i got a good look at his face now and his eyes weren't just red from crying he was high again. shit.  please dont be like last time.

"ITS ALL YOUR FAULT ASHLEY, ITS ALWAYS YOUR FAULT. I HAVE TO PLAN MY PARENTS FUNERAL BECAUSE OF YOU" i begin to get light headed again so i kick him places no man wants to be kicked and he drops me to the floor. he slaps me across the face so hard my head speeds to the side. i see him bent over in pain on the floor beside me and thats all i remembered before everything went dark.

time skip 3 days later.

monicas pov

y/n hasnt been in school for 3 days and i havent even herd from her. im begining to get very scared at first i thought she was just sick as it made sense but now i dont know. . the bell for the end of the day just went and i see rose at her locker so i decide to go ask if she knows anything.

"oh hey monica" she greets me with a smile.

"hey rose, i was just wondering if you'be herd from y/n at all" rose was like the only other person y/n really talked too. 

"no, im sorry i havent. why is she okay?" she questioned now confused herself. 

"i dunno, im sure shes fine" she better be or i'll murder her myself. 

"yeah, shes probably just sick like the other week" rose shrugs. 

"yeah, i'll see you tomorrow" we both waved goodbye and i walked outside mentally cursing myself for not seeing it earlier. last time she was away like this her dad had done his worst. im sorry y/n but im calling the cops. 

a/n

the plans