two doors down

sunnyville

tw  ed, hospitals, fainting,
not proof read

lizzie's pov
after dinner the girls went to hang out outside not before i noticed y/n heading down to the toilet again.

she came back out and her eyes were all teary. i went to ask if she was okay but she pulled her hood up and slipped outside with her friend.

y/ns pov
it's getting bad again and i don't know what to do. i was wrapped up in a hoodie and trackies even though it was still 26 degrees the wind made it bearable.

"y/n why are you eyes so red?" monica asked me as we sat together on the outdoor couch.

"it's the cold wind" i replied wiping my eyes. and she just looked at me and sighed.
"y/n i know" she said flat toned.

i felt that tightness in my chest grow.
"i don't know what your talking about" it was hard to keep my voice from breaking.

"i don't want you to get that bad again, please talk to me" she said pulling my hood down to look at my face better. i sighed wiping the tears that kept falling down my face.

"it was okay while i was with my dad because there was never any food to eat anyway but now i feel like i'm expected to have to eat every meal and keep eating and i physically cannot keep it all down. i know i'm messed up but it shouldn't be that hard to convince myself i'm allowed to eat" i sobbed out. i fucking hate my brain for this.

she pulled me into her arms as sobs shook my body i was as quiet as i could be. i wanted it to end.

"when's the last time you ate something and kept it down?" she asked me rubbing my back. i stayed quiet. i really don't remember.

she gave me an empathetic look and i closed my eyes. the no food and crying took it out of me. 

a few days later.

i was at school being forced to run laps in the heat. we had a sub for pe today and his whole lesson plan was that.

my vision was fading and my head was getting heavy when all of a sudden i felt myself hit the ground.

"y/n! y/n!" i heard my name in the distance then right in my ear. my hands flew to my ears, my heart beating like drums in my head.

i was in the office. the school nurse, rose, pe teacher and principal were there too. rose was right beside me i could feel her leg against mine. that's about all i could feel.

"i think she's too out of it"

"she's obviously malnourished"

"why would you make the kids run in this heat?"

"does sunnyville have room?"

"i'll give them a call"

"get her guardian in here"

lizzie's pov
i was in the middle of class when my classroom phone started ringing.
"hey this is janet from the office, we have y/n in the sick bay after she fainted in pe, the nurse wants to see you"

"class i'll be right back"

i sprinted down the hall to the nurses office and i saw y/n and rose sat side by side y/n looked pretty dead.
"how long has she been under your care?"

"officially only a few days?" i said wondering why they seemed so concerned. like yes fainting for nothing is bad but they seem like concerned.

the nurse waved me outside the room and we stood just in front of the closed door.
"she hasn't been sick recently? like a stomach bug?" she asked and i shook my head.

"okay, we think she's been starving herself and throwing up, she's clearly malnourished, i think it's best to send her away for a little bit just to get some extra help" the nurse said handing me freshly printed forms.

"no i'm not sending her to some asylum that never helps" i saïd reading the name of the place. it was the one my sister went to and it helped her for a little but she learned worse stuff.

"you don't have much say elizabeth" the nurse said rubbing my arm. "it's for the best"

hesitantly i signed the forms and was finally allowed in to talk to her.
she looked up at me and her face dropped. "are you okay sweetheart?" i asked her and she just nodded.

she was drinking this electrolyte drink while rose was nervously fidgeting. y/n had to go with the nurse for a second so i asked the blond what was up.

"i should have told you sooner, but y/n said not to say anything but i didn't think it was this bad" she gushed out quickly. she explained what she knew and i agreed that she should have told me but i couldn't stay mad at her.

y/n came back in and we were sent home.
"please don't make me go" she said her voice shaking.
"honey i know you don't want to hear it but you need help and that's okay, it's okay not to be okay, it's not okay to suffer alone" she was silently crying into her hoodie sleeve and she must've been scared.

my heart aches for her. at home we packed up a few of her things based on what the list said we could.
and i texted scarlet asking if she could pick mattie up from school today since it was a drive there and back.

we got back into the car and the ride was silent. it was a long 2 hours. but i didn't blame her.

"y/n i'm not abandoning you" i told her as soon as i parked.

"then why are you leaving me here lizzie" she said her voice breaking as she got out of the car. she swung her backpack over her shoulders and we headed in.