two doors down

science.

fucking ass filler chapter btw

y/n pov
it was a short drive to the school and lizzie dropped me off at the front of the school before driving around the back to the teachers carpark.

i started walking inside the gates before collapsing by a tree. i was exhausted. what felt like 2 minutes but was probably 20 monica shows up beside me.

"hey honey i've been calling you, i didn't think you were coming today" she said reaching out and rubbing her thumb over my shoulder gently.

"i needed a distraction" i whispered as i had my head resting on my knees. i hear as she takes a seat next to me and i lift my head to look at her.

she was so effortlessly beautiful and incredibly smart. maybe if i was more like her my father wouldn't hate me so much. all i do is cause problems.

we stare into eachothers eyes for a moment before she smiles gently. "what's going round that head of yours" she said with a soft voice.

"just...thinking" i smiled weakly at her.

maybe i am the problem.

"well it's clearly more than that y/n" she said with her eyebrows drawn together. "it was different this time wasn't it" she concluded.

i hesitated at first but nodded my head. maybe it's the way my fathers words were sticking to me more than usual. or the fact i was worrying about mattie. i don't know if it was being in a new environment either.

miss olsen is a whole different thought. she has this motherly aura towards her and i can't help but grow attached to it. but whenever that happens they always leave. i can't go through that again. i don't think i'd survive.

monica then prompted me to talk again and i repeated my thoughts to her. except the one about how if i was more like her maybe this wouldn't happen to me.

she validated my feelings and agreed that with all the recent changes in my life i was bound to think there was some connection.

"how about you come over on the weekend?" she suggested i nodded agreeing.

"i'll have to ask lizzie though. and make sure mattie will be alright " i added now realising. she nodded and the bell went for first session.

we waited a couple minutes before monica stood up reaching a hand out to me. as we walked inside we parted ways since we had different science classes.

when i walked in i saw everyone's eyes were on me. avoiding eye contact i took my seat at the back next to rose.

"hey" she greeted me as i sat down. i smiled back thankful she took the outer seat so i could sit against the wall.

my hair was out so i could sneak earphones in without anyone noticing. male fantasy was the first song to start playing and i started to relax a bit.

i took my pen from my pocket and started drawing on the page. zoning out completely. a couple minutes later and a worksheet was passed out in-front of me. but i didn't do it.

science was one of the subjects i was failing but so what. it's not like i'm going anywhere in life so i don't need to pass.

"this is your exit ticket remember" i hear the teacher call from the front of the classroom.

shit.

i pulled the sheet onto my book in my line of sight and i did not understand a single thing. i felt a tap on my arm and rose was looking at me.

"do you want the answers or for me to teach you" she asked and i was glad she was here.

"uh could you actually teach me. you'll probably explain it better than the teacher" i asked taking my earphones out completely and giving her my attention.

she explained basically a cheat on how everything works instead of telling me the whole scientific method.

with her help i completed the sheet by the time the class ended. the teacher dismissed everyone but as i was packing up my stuff the teacher came over to me.

"y/n although i am aware of your current situation that doesn't excuse the fact your failing my class" she started " so here is a mini assignment, i expect this to be completed as well as the one you are partnered with rose for by this time next week" she explained handing me the 6 page booklet.

i rolled my eyes as she walked away and grabbed it shoving the pages carelessly into my bag.

my next class was english with guess who. miss olsen. "ugh imma throw up" i said as i walked over to monica and passed a couple basically fucking on the bag racks. she laughed but i was being serious. she seemed to catch on and put her hands on my shoulders.

"honey you've gone pale, are you actually gonna throw up" she asked now concerned. i shook my head as we sat outside for first break.

"yknow when your hungry to the point you feel like throwing up. it's just that. i'm fine" i shook my head drinking some water.

"no i don't know that feeling, that can't be good" she said eyeing me. i shrugged and reached into my bag pulling out the lunch box.

a piece of fruit can't hurt right.

i grabbed one of the mandarins out of my lunch and started peeling it. monica and i fell into a normal conversation now and i was starting to feel better.

"oh ashton brought a cat home, parents were not happy about that" monica said looking up from her piece of banana bread.

"like kidnapped it?" i questioned to which she shook her head.
"no but he found it my his car and it didn't have a collar. she's tiny" she then said showing me a photo of the grey and brown kitten.