two doors down

last year and lily

i woke up on my back and her lying on my arm i tried to get it out but she didn't wake. i tried to shake her awake a little but she just rolled over closer to me.

"lilly i need to pee" she just kind of mumbled and i sighed. this is my fate.

what felt like forever later she woke up. the cutest  bed head and a confused look on her face. "ugh it's only 9am why am i awake, it's my day off"

"i've been awake for hours"
"well you're just crazy" she wrapped an arm over me and i wrapped my arms around her head. her hair smelled so good.
"i have needed to pee all morning though"
"oh sorry" she said getting off me. i just laughed and thanked her going to the toilet.

passing the kitchen i see mon and rose at the kitchen table. a little hungover it looks like.
"we're ordering food is lily awake" i nodded and went to the toilet.

when i came back all 3 were at the kitchen table deciding over a bundle for 6. "y/n what are you having"
"can i have a large no sugar sprite" i said rubbing my eyes.
"you need food" monica said "chips?"
i just nodded it wasn't worth the fight. we all sat on the couch and started watching the new zootopia movie.

i rested my head on lily and had my legs over monica. i was in the corner seat and wrapped a blanket around myself.

20 minutes later the door opened and scarlet and colin walked back in.
"morning girls" scarlett said also looking hungover slightly. "rose dorothy you have some explaining to do" we all turn our heads to the still open liquor cabinet. "no daughter of mine should be picking the box wine, i had so many options in there i could have given you suggestions" she just shook her head rose was shocked.

they went upstairs and a bit later our food finally arrived. i've never had a sprite so crisp. i didn't touch my chips and an hour later i decided i wanted to go home and sleep in my own bed.

it was only 1pm but it was stormy and perfect for a nap. rose dropped me home and i went in to quiet. lizzie was watching a show on the tv. i smiled and greeted her but headed to my room to nap.

the next day at school.

"can y/n y/l/n please report to the office immediately" the second i sat down in math class. perfect timing.

i got up and walked down the several halls to the office. when i got there they told me to go to the coordinators room and so i did. being greeted with the academic coordinator and coach.

"y/n you're failing every class but art and english, you won't be graduating and you can't join track unless you atleast pass all your classes"

"trials are in 2 weeks, if you come every single day and raise all you grades you can try out"
"your teachers will tell you what you have to do to pass"

they kept talking to me and i didn't say anything. until i was dismissed. Them calling me out put me in a bad mood so when i sat in math and had a revision sheet given to me and got told a date for an exam i wanted to cry.

next session was english and lily and i were on the couch. this was the one class i wasn't failing so naturally i was getting lily to help teach me with math.

"i can't i can't i don't want to" i said throwing my pen down. i cant do it.

"sunshine cmon, you just have to do the simple familiar to pass"
"lily i don't want to" she put her had on my leg and her gaze softened.
"you have two weeks to practice you'll be okay, i know you're smart"
"i was smart" i feared my head on her shoulder and payed attention to what lizzie was saying. something boring about literature.

"you have any water?" i asked and she handed me her water bottle. i drunk the cold water. "run after school?" i asked her but she shook her head.

"i have a game sorry" i sighed and leant back in my chair.
"can i watch you play?" i asked. her face flushed red.

"oh yeah- if you... i mean of course! i would love it-" "oh my god do i make you nervous" i smiled amused.
"shut up" she decided and i laughed.
"oh i do, what are you gonna score a goal for me or something"
"okay now you're being cheesy"
"what if i like cheesy"
"you do like your mac and cheese"

"girls! quiet please" it was lizzie and we shut up but struggled to stop laughing.

at break i went to the canteen but everything was unappetising. so i sat down with my water.

after school.

i asked for lizzie's permission and went home with lily so i could go to the game with her tonight. her room was so cute.

a guitar i found out was her mothers. the drawings ive given her on her wall and clothes galore.

"it's a bit cold" i hinted and she threw her team hoodie at me. oh stop it. it has her name on the back. "branding me are we"

"maybe" she shrugged and i smiled putting it on. i then asked before laying in her bed and seeing if she had an issue with outside clothes before pulling the blanket over me.

"do you want a snack or anything?" she asked as she came back from getting changed. i shook my head and a minute later she returned with a redbull and some fruit.

lily offered me some of her redbull but i shook my head. "after last year my heart can't take energy drinks, they said only for a few months but i don't think im quite better yet"

"you keep referring to last year but what happened? you don't have to tell me obviously, but i have heard people talk"

"well-" i debated giving her the short answer or not, but i decided to tell her the whole truth.

"my mum left when i was little, then my dad became an alcoholic and was abusive he would make me go grocery shopping but even then there was nothing. i got used to running on empty. my dad was out all day and sleeping all night but in those few hours where we crossed paths he got really bad. at times he started using hard drugs, and when he was really high he would mistake me for my mum and" i kind of paused and she got what i implied. "then my stepmom and mattie came into play and it was better at first but then they both turned bad and i had to save mattie. this one weekend i couldn't move from my wardrobe for 2 days and someone called the police for a welfare check dad threatened to shoot mattie, we ended up living with lizzie"

"y/ -" she started but i shook my head.

"then we got sent back to him when he got out of - wait maybe the shooting thing happened after we were sent back, or did i tell lizzie that it got worse" i paused and she didn't interrupt me.
"okay i don't remember the fine details but whatever you get the point. when i stayed with lizzie i was overwhelmed with the amount of food she consistently had in her kitchen. at that point mattie was eating a lot more than me and he's 7. lizzie noticed but didn't really say anything. i had myself convinced i didn't need to eat to function and when i did eat. i felt like i wasn't in control, so i would make myself throw up, to have that empty feeing in my stomach and to be in control. then i passed out at school. they classed me as malnourished sent me to some hospital to get treated. it didn't really work, i just slowly got better as i was surrounded by better people. i still dont eat enough, but i dont purge anymore so progress" i shrugged. "that isn't even everything, but i just came to the realisation that i just told you almost everything and now its awkward"

"it's not awkward" she quickly reassured me. "im sorry that happened to you, you don't deserve so much hardship"

i just smiled weakly and regretted all life decisions. "it's the fact that everyone knows all of that. even people i don't talk to"

"you don't deserve that either, it's your business sunshine, keep it in your briefcase"
"that's cheesy, but cute. you definitely have a way with words"

"if you say so"

a/n so why is this 1500 words of crap. anyway i'm setting up a new plot line.