two doors down

you okay

monica and i were sitting with some of our other friends at a table. they were talking about some math teacher or something. my head was throbbing my body was aching and i think she started to notice something was up. 

"y/n we should go to the bathrooms" she said nodding at me with that look in her eyes. i agreed and got up following her away from our group. i held onto her arm as we walked to keep myself up. which i can tell just worried her. 

she pulled me into the bathrooms and gave me another look which said are you gonna tell me whats up or do i have to force it out of you. "my dad gave me a warning before my grandparents came im fine. and im just getting used to my dad being nice and fatherly" i cracked all the knuckles in my hands and didnt meet her eyes. 

"honey please tell someone, even if you tell your grandparents. they will sort out their son" she told me and i nodded knowing i will not be doing that. 

"maybe" i shrugged pulling my shirt sleeves down over my hands.  she rubbed my arms before pulling me into a hug. 

"3 years and we're out of here" she whispered holding me tight. "here put this on, the bruise on your neck is getting darker" she explained handing me her hoodie a conflicted look on her face. i nodded embaressed and put it on just as the bell went signifying we had 5 minutes to get to our next class "ill walk you to english then we have science together, our classes are merging for and experiment" a couple girls walked into the bathrooms so we left. 

my english class was on the other side of the school so we got there just before the bell. luckily monicas class was close so she wasnt late because of me. i walked through the door saying hi to miss olsen but she stopped me before i could enter the class room. 

"hoods off hun" she softly pulled the hood from my head considering i didnt move it and i wouldnt meet her eyes. "you okay?" she sounded concerned. i finally looked at her face and her head was tilted to the side in question. 

"yeah im okay" she nodded and we both entered the class as everyone else had entered already. i sat down at the back since it was now my assigned seat i was at ease knowing i didnt have to rush before someone took it. the class recently got a seating plan cause some groups needed to be split up. 

suddenly there was a knock at the door. miss olsen waved the mystery person in and turns out it was rose, blair and i think nick. i dont know hes a triplet and they all look the same. "our teachers away so we got split up into the other english classes" blair said. she was basically town royalty. mayors daughter. 

miss nodded and they took seats wherever there was space. rose came over to me seeing the free spot beside me. "can i sit here" i nodded and she sat down. "a man of many words today" she said softly "you okay" i swear if one more person asks today i will cry. 

"yep" i said with a soft smile but i knew my eyes were a little red. she gave me an unconvinced look but nodded sliding her book over to me to play tic tac toe. miss starts to hand out this boring looking paragraph worksheet. i really didnt see the point in it. 

rose started doing it right away but i started drawing on the edges of it. miss olsen walked around helping people she got to rose and i and propped rose for getting it done but when she looked at my sheet she asked if i needed any help. 

"im okay, thank you" i said writing the first sentence. she nodded and left. after that sentence i went back to drawing. 

"you can copy mine if you want" rose offered as she already finished. i thanked her and she gave me her paper. after that class finished quickly but lizzie asked me to stay after class. i was scared she was going to ask me if im okay again but she told me something different. 

"hey y/n, your other teachers and i have been talking and you seem to be almost or completely failing alot of your classes, other than art where you pass with flying colours. we also notice how you dont talk to anyone, which is fine i dont like people either but we're worried somethings going on at home. you can tell us you know. we're here to help" 

i stood there frozen. did they already tell my dad about me failing. oh my god what is he going to do to me. i started breathing heavily and hyperventilating. what is he going to do. 

"hey, hey y/n, your okay. we havent told anyone yet we wanted to speak to you first. its okay sweetheart, breathe follow my breathing" she came from around her desk and stood infront of me. i played with my sleeves again. i wanted to run out of this room, out of this school, out of this fucking town. but that wont help. then she will think somethings actually happening at home and there will be cops at my house like last time. 

i looked up to the ceiling to keep tears from rolling down my face. she put her hands on my shoulders and made me look at her. "im sorry for reacting like that. i had just had a conversation with my dad last night about my grades and now if the school tells him this i feel like ive disapointed him again" ive rehearsed this to many times. "i promise to bring my grades up" i dont know how i was going to do it. i really dont have the energy. to make this day better ive embrassed myself infront of lizzie. 

"thats good to hear. not disappointing your dad part, im sure hes proud of you for atleast trying" oh how wrong was she. but it was nice to imagine. i gave her a tight lipped smile and nodded. "do you want a hug?" she asked i nodded slowly and she grave me a hug. i needed this. lizzie rubbed my back and pulled away.

 "im here for you y/n" 

a/n 

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