The Bikers Sin. The Sinful Riders Book One

jealousy has ruined everything now

Gin was frozen.

In front of her stood the one person she thought would have always had her back, but instead stabbed it. And she was here for herself.

It occurred to her that it was always the same with Mags. She would come over when she needed something, not when Gin did. Whenever Gin needed a shoulder to cry on or help talking thing through, Mags was always far too busy to help her out with her problems.

She had never thought about it before, but Mags wasn't really a close friend to her.

She had always used her.

Even when she was giving Gin her two cents on her relationships, she had always managed to steer the conversation back to her own problems, be they imagined or otherwise.

And now looking at the woman standing in front of her, all she felt was anger.

She had been having sex with the man that she had been fully aware Gin had been in love with. She had even bribed him into spending anytime what so ever with her in the first place, claiming that she did it to cheer her up. But she had done it so that she had the one thing that Gin hadn't, and now will never have. Griff, wholly and truly to herself.

"Gin" she sobbed, again. "James wont answer my calls." Did she think that she hadn't heard her the first time? Why was she repeating it?

"And?"

She had clearly not been expecting that response from her loyal doormat as she looked taken aback and gapped at her.

"Wh...what do you mean? I need a friend right now?" clearly she didn't think that they no longer had a friendship after what she had done. How could she think that Gin would show her comfort when she had found out the the man she thought was taking things slowly, too slowly for her liking, was actually seeking this woman out after every encounter they had?

"I mean, and what do you want me to do about it? I really don't care if the man you claimed to have feelings for wont answer you calls after what you did."

"But I told you why I..."

"Just stop," she cut her off. She didn't know if she wanted to hash this out right now, but then again it would be better to get it off of her chest. "You claimed to have done it to cheer me up, but you knew that I didn't go to that first party looking for anything. I went to get out of my head. You knew that I was falling for him but you still wanted to keep having sex with him. And if he was too be believed, when he tried to break it off with you, you would basically use sexto make sure that he kept coming back, or you forced yourself on him. Not that you had much resistance from him at all, by the sounds of things. Then when you came to me complaining that James didn't want to go public with you, that he wanted to keep it a secret a bit longer, you didn't stop having sex with Griff. When you had found the man you wanted for the rest of your life, you didn't stop having sex with Griff. When I told you that I had fallen in love with him, you didn't stop having sex with Griff. I thought you were my friend. But you weren't." she shook her head sadly. "If you were you never would have done what you did. You never would have tricked me into thinking that I have finally found a man, a family, that wanted me. That accepted me as I was. You never would have even entertained the idea of using your own body as compensation for him asking me out. You claimed that you wanted to cheer me up, but all you have done was ruined me. What I thought was a romantic thought, turned out to benothing more then he was just getting it from someone who was far more attractive then I was."

"Gin, please..."

"Don't come back here. You haven't been my friend for a long time, if you ever truly were. And as for James. I hope he never talks to you ever again. That man has suffered in life and for you to do this just shows what a shallow, pathetic excuse for a human being you are. I will never forgive you for doing this to me, and I have a feeling that James wont either." she paused to let that sink in for a moment. "You not only betrayed me, but him as well. You cheated us out of what we thought that we had. You allowed your selfish desires to cloud your common sense. You allowed your need to be the only person happy to overtake any kind of feeling you had for anyone else. Did you really think that what you were doing was okay? Did you think it was never going to come out? Did you think that I would ever still be friends with you after you had betrayed me in such an veil way, especially knowing what had happened in my last relationship? Knowing what had happened with James do you think that he deserved what you did to him? Did you want to hurt me so much that it didn't matter who else suffered in the process? You are a selfish, immature person. And I want nothing to do with you from now on. I wish I hadn't spent so many nights talking you down from you emotions to realize that you weren't even an acquaintance let alone a friend." she grabbed the door and went to close it.

"No. Please Gin. I swear I never meant to hurt you! Shey just said that she thought you needed cheering up and then I saw you looking at Griff with interest. And I knew that kind of woman he went for, so I just wanted to give you what you wanted. I swear I don't know why I kept having sex with him. I felt angry that he didn't want me anymore, that he kept saying that he rally liked you and wanted to start being more, but couldn't when we were still having sex. I don't know why I was so jealous. I don't know why I kept forcing myself on him, even after I started with James. I don't know why I did any of it." her tears were falling faster now that had said her piece, but Gin wasn't moved at all.

"Well your jealousy has ruined everything now hasn't it? Now the man I though really liked me turned out to be nothing like who I thought he was, my friend who I thought would always be there for me turned out to have never been who I thought she was either. And James who I thought was starting to look less angry all the time now will more then likely want to burn the world down for being tricked, again. And you have no one to blame but yourself. I have never done anything to warrant this kind of treatment, but you were still jealous that a manlike Griff might actually like me better after spending time with me. What did I ever do to any of you to deserve this?"

The tears were starting to form in Gins eyes again, and not wanting to show her ex friend how much pain she was still in she quickly closed the door.

Before she had even shed the first tear Priest pulled her into his arms. "You still have me. Pretty sure you still have Burn. And I think maybe even Prez. You still have people who see you, Gin. You still have people who will kill to make you happy."

If anyone else had said those words to her, she would have thought that he was just blowing hot air, but from Priest she knew that he meant every word he said.

Especially the killing part.