𝐀𝐥𝐥 𝐀 𝐋𝐢𝐞... | Inquisitormaster & Z squad | Danganronpa AU

☘︎ 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 29☘︎ || 𝐅𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞, 𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐍𝐨 𝐅𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠

Trigger Warning: Triggering topics, Anxiety, Implied self harm, mentions of insanity

Chapter 4: For the Truth...

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~Alex's POV~

The events this afternoon disturbed whatever peace was left between us as a class. Instantly, I rush to my room once we arrive back at the school. That was hours ago. I've been locked in my room without any plans of coming out ever since. My back rests against the wall as I sit on the ground with my knees pulled closely to my chest. My arms are wrapped tightly around them, and I steadily rock back and forth in a futile attempt to slow my restless nerves.

I can't trust anyone. I really can't trust anyone here, no matter what. I thought Levi was a friend, but...

*Flashback*

Right as I begin to walk, something jumps out from beside the police station, comes up behind me, and wraps an arm around my neck. Instinctively, I start fighting and trying to rip their arm away. They're too strong. I dig my nails into the sleeve and try to scream. Before I can, a rag is shoved against my mouth and nose, forcing me to inhale a sour, burning scent.

I continue to fight. I stomp on their shoes, but everything's starting to blur. My arms are starting to lose feeling and feel like noodles. My legs are getting wobbly and it's getting harder to stand. With the little energy I have, I scratch their hand lightly before my head drops. I'm staring at the blur of my shoes... My eyelids are growing heavy...

Whoever this is, they continue to hold the rag against my face... Then...

*End*

He drugged me, he killed Candi and Zach, and... I'm not certain if he's killed anyone else. I'd never heard of Kevin Moore or the Despair Twins before today's trial. Yet, what he's done to me... I can't ever forget that... Forget that I have blood on my hands. It was all an act in an attempt to frame me... and all of my supposed classmates genuinely believed I'd do that to one of our friends... Two of them, nonetheless.

Now, I'm finally starting to realize... There is no hope anymore. I don't know if there's despair, either. I'm scared of this game, of all of my classmates, and most importantly myself. I don't know what I'm capable of. What if I decide to kill someone due to a new motive issued? What if someone attacks me and I have to kill them to survive? What if I... What if I lose my sanity and kill someone like Levi did? The possibilities are endless, yet the opportunities for hope are finite. There is nothing I can think of... Nothing I can do that will successfully bring everyone together without the intent of murder. I can't trust anyone. What if Drake kills me because he's convinced I killed his brother? What if Light kills me to test if he can get executed? What if Sora kills me to escape this place since it'd be difficult to suspect him as a killer? And... What if Jade kills me because she's grown tired of me and wants to leave? No one's trustworthy.

I haven't been able to calm down. I've tried my medicine for anxiety, though it hasn't been working. My chest tightens with every breath I take, I can't stop myself from shaking, and the tears... They rush down my face rapidly, exhausting my eyes. The walls have been closing in on me for the past hour and the air is suffocating and taut. I don't know how long I can stay here keeping my sanity intact. I don't know anything... I can't. There is nothing left for us...

Nothing is helping. I've tried to think of designs I could work on to pass the time and the sense of doom and the thoughts of all of our friends we've lost linger in my thoughts, pushing itself to the front of my mind. It hurts more than anything. My room morphs, sways, and turns and I feel as if I'm falling slowly through the air regardless of me sitting on the edge of my bed. I can't do this anymore... Is this what despair feels like? Does it feel like everything's crashing down upon you like everyone's going to disappear through your fingertips, and that everything... Means nothing?