The Spoiled One&The Bad Boy

(75) Apologies&Truth Bombs

A week later,

Bucky had asked Dr Hanson if she would be willing to meet him at James Sr's house for him to do the apologies with his paternal family, and siblings. He already did apologies with Marleigh and Harold. 

Bucky was waiting outside the house when he saw Reign's car pulling in. He walked over to her car as she opened the door. 

"Hey you look beautiful.." he said as he kissed her. 

"Thanks. I got all of our back to school shopping today while you were at football." She said 

"I missed you, it feels good to play again but I miss spending all my time with you." He said 

She smiled at him, as she put her arms around his neck "I miss you too so does Duchess." She said 

"Aww, my babies." He whispered as he kissed her as they both laughed. 

Dr Hanson finally arrived, they led her inside. 

"Everyone this is Dr Hanson my therapist, Dr Hanson this is my paternal side of the family." He said as he began to introduce everyone. 

"Nice to meet you all.." she said as she shook everyone's hands. 

"Ok, so I asked James here to begin apologizing to everyone. He's already done that with his mother's side. But he asked to meet with you all to start with some of you. We have been working through a lot in the last couple of weeks, he's on medicine to help cope with the depression, and anxiety as well as sleep. So you may take the floor.." Dr Hanson said 

Bucky took deep breath, "First my siblings, I um I know that we have had a relationship in the last four years, but I have also been angry sometimes I snap and say or do things that I don't mean to do but I only got 13 years with mama, but in reality I got 10 good years. The last three years of her life were filled with pain, hospitals and surgeries that turned her into someone else. But she was mama, and I loved her so I didn't care. But I felt very alone that day, I was scared and I didn't know what to do I had hoped it was a dream. I needed you five in that moment and you all were no where to be found..I..um I secretly wished that Ryan or Austin had said no mom we won't go to wherever it was she told you to go..or Jana. I'm very sorry that I've been distant..or make it seem like I'm not happy at weddings or baby announcements..I for awhile didn't want love because she wouldn't be here to meet the girl, or be here to dance with me or get to be a grandma to my kids granted she hasn't got to do that with any of your kids but I know she would have loved being a grandma. I know Ryan and Jana are in the same boat as me but you two are four and five years older than me..it felt like I was alone in the boat you got time. Ryan got to go the mother/son his freshmen year of highschool, Jana got the mother/daughter tea party..you got those memories of the fun mom stuff..while I have to sit back and watch small my friends do it..but it's ok I'm learning to let go." He said 

"That's why you got mad at Dad when he told you he was transferring you out of public school to attend where we went for highschool." Liam said 

He shook his head yes, "I didn't want to be reminded of all the things." He said 

"You did good James, now it's time for your grandparents." Dr Hanson said 

"Nana and Papa, I'm very sorry if I have said or did anything to upset you. I know I haven't been around much that I kept my distance far away from here unless dad forced me to come before I was driving. But like I told Gigi and Pops, being here has been very hard, being in Montana is hard. I have a lot of memories of mom here and in Montana. But more than anything I hated Montana..I hated my birthday, I even hated the twins birthday." He said then he looked at Dr Hanson. 

"Go on.." she mouthed 

"Mom knew something was wrong, and so did dad. I walked into their bed room a few weeks before my 10th birthday I heard them talking about a lump, and dad telling her to go the doctor. I waited a few minutes before I made my presence known, I asked Gigi what it meant when she cut my hair she told Mom might be sick..I was mad because it seemed like nobody cared not even mom. Everyone just walked around like nothing was wrong. We threw parties went to Montana..and it just felt like nobody cared. So I'm sorry if I pulled away and didn't care that anyone gave me space cause I just wanted to be alone." He said 

"And to you Ophelia and Izzy I'm sorry for how I have treated you in the last two and half years. She was my mom, my best friend and I was angry that God took her from me." He said 

"Good job James you did amazing.." Dr Hanson said 

"Honey what about your dad.." Helen said 

"I'm not ready.." he said softly 

James looked down, "Buchanan honey.." Helen said 

"You all have to understand that he isn't ready. We are still working on his relationship with his father." Dr Hanson said 

"What is there to work on? My son sat outside his door for weeks after his mother died to make sure that he didn't hurt himself. He did what the other therapist told him to do to give little J space to grieve and heal and all that did was push them further apart." Helen said 

"Nana please stop, I don't want to apologize to dad yet. The man I once knew is gone! He isn't the man I use to look up to..have you heard that you have a illegitimate grandchild. He said 

"What?!" James Sr said 

"What is be talking about?" Ophelia said 

James looked down, "Remember dad's old scrub nurse Blair? She showed up at dad's the other day, with his 3 year old daughter. She needed a bone marrow transplant..Blair wasn't a match but dad was.." Ryan said 

"Now whose hungry?" Bucky said as he took Reign's hand and they went into the kitchen to eat as Dr Hanson left. 

While everyone else argued in the living room, the grandkids ate dinner.