Don't Listen In Secret || Joshua Hong

Breaking the ice

6 months later: 

I came out of my room looking like a wild animal. my hair disheveled and a toothbrush in my mouth. i was wearing sky blue cotton shorts and a white cami top with spaghetti straps. i made my way downstairs with my eyes still half closed and heavy with left over sleep. i stretched my arms above my head as i reached the bottom step.

jihye : MOM! eomma! mumma! my lady! 
 
I ran to my mom who was in the kitchen and hugged her from the back. she gasped in surprise but chuckled at my affection. i looked over her shoulder to see that she was making pancakes. 

jihye : PANCAKES!  i love you 

mom : pancakes or me ?

jihye : pancakes obviously. 

i ran away as she tried to hit me. i put the tooth brush in my mouth again as i was trying to go back to my room. but then my stupid intuition said i should say good morning to dad too. 

i hopped to the living room and the tooth brush fell as my mouth opened itself. 

dad, jeonghan, mingyu and joshua turned back to look at me. suddenly i felt so shy that i wanted to roll into a ball or something. i saw how shocked the four men looked and then realized i was still wearing the clothes i slept in and they didn't cover much. 

feeling exposed and self conscious i picked up my tooth brush and sprinted back to my room. embarrassment can come later, i need to hide first. and maybe jump from the window and kill myself. 

i felt so mad at my mother for not telling me that jeonghan and his friends were coming. i mean i am not a kid anymore and i don't fancy shoving my body on people's face.

i sat on my bed with my head in my hands, since i can't just slice it off. but then i realized i could hear their voices from downstairs. 

so obviously i stopped breathing to eavesdrop. 

jeonghan : mom why didn't you tell jihye we are here? she must be so uncomfortable right now.

i didn't know my brother cared so much for me. i couldn't hear what mom said.

dad : sorry she just walked out like that. 

joshua : no no it's okay. it's her home. 

mingyu : yeah and we just think of her as a sister so it's not uncomfortable don't worry. 

fuck you. i am not your sister. 

realizing that they were not talking about me anymore i decided to shower. i used the body shower with vanilla fragrance. the most expensive one i have. 

after hosting a small ted talk on how to not shut yourself from the world for 20 years after an embarrassing moment, i felt ready to come out of the shower. 

I wore an oversized graphic tee that featured a sinister black cat (i love cats) and jeans. successfully hiding all the skin that i was feeling self conscious about after the morning incident.

i tiptoed down the stairs alert in case i run into the guys. especially the one i have a crush on. 

? : oh hey!

i squealed and jumped a little. i sighed in relief after looking back as it was just jeonghan. 

jeonghan : so were you trying to sneak out? 

he squeezed my cheek as he said so. i let out a 'aah' sound in pain before smacking his hand off me. 

jihye : stop hurting me

jeonghan : then stop running away from me. we are meeting after half an year! 

my face fell as i realized he must have missed me and i was running away because i wanted to avoid my hopeless crush that i am trying so hard to move on from but it doesn't work because he is perfect.

this isn't right yoon jihye. show your idiot brother some love. 

jihye : sorry i just didn't want to meet your members. 

mingyu : maybe we should go back shua hyung. 

i turned around instantly to see both joshua and mingyu behind me. they were laughing awkwardly while my mom sent death glares my way. 

joshua : it's okay jihye if you are uncomfortable we can go somewhere else. 

i felt bad as joshua smiled kindly. 

mingyu : or take the easy route and just stay in your room 

joshua smacked mingyu's arm. 

jeonghan : none of that. you don't need to be embarrassed it's okay cupcake.

yeah that's my nickname.

mingyu : cupcake?

jeonghan : yeah she identified as a cupcake when she was little

mingyu : so two years back?

jihye : hey! you are just two years older

joshua : that's a cute name 

calm down jihye he is talking about the name not you.

jihye : why are you calling me that! stop embarrassing me more

i pouted angrily to jeonghan. in response he just chuckled. 

jeonghan : at least i succeeded in breaking the ice.