Don't Listen In Secret || Joshua Hong

Don't listen in secret

jeonghan pov:

joshua: where's jihye?

i didn't tear my gaze from the game, i am so done with joshua ignoring my whole existence ever since i invited him to my home. he talks about jihye all the time and even though he tries to be subtle with his curiosities, anyone with half a brain could tell his intentions.

jeonghan: she wasn't feeling well so she is sleeping.

i finally looked at him to see his reaction and i was satisfied to see that he was indeed worried. he does take care of her in subtle ways that jihye probably doesn't notice. 

seungcheol: what happened?

jeonghan: it's just a fever. 

joshua: she didn't have dinner, i will make something for her.

i smiled as he said that. 

seungcheol: he is down bad

jeonghan: as he should be

scoups turned towards me in awe as if i said something strange.

seungcheol: you are really manipulative

jeonghan: no i am not.

i replied rather defensively. i was offended by what he said. i am not trying to control her life, i just want them to get together because they are too dumb to do that on their own.

joshua pov:

i was slightly nervous about seeing jihye, knowing what i do now. i had to go out for work but it was difficult to focus. all i could think of all day was that letter and the girl who wrote it. 

i could've never imagined that jihye liked me in that way. she was always quite distant and at many instances i noticed it. but i always thought that we were awkward because we rarely met each other.

she must have felt so hurt, seeing me with someone else and i wish i could just erase all the times we avoided each other. all the lies and the misunderstandings. the right and the wrong. 

perhaps she was so hurt that now it's difficult to come closer. 

as i ascended the stairs, a faint melody entered my ears. it was a song. but it wasn't just any song. 

i smiled as i heard her repeat the lyrics in her heavy accent. 

perhaps i still have a chance.

jihye pov: 

jihye:  I'm dancing in the dark with you ... between my arms ...  I know I have met an angel ... in person

it took me a while to find this song using whatever melody i remembered. and my heart fluttered as i read the lyrics for the first time. it wasn't a break up song like i thought. and it doesn't seem to be for yeri either. 

maybe mingyu was right. i was wrong in thinking that joshua was thinking about yeri while singing that. he was emotional for sure and he was looking at me with so much love as we danced under the moonlight.

am i being delusional if i think joshua was calling me an angel?

i have denied all the hints he gave me but now it seems i can't deny it anymore. there's something blossoming between us and at first i was scared that joshua was only trying to fill yeri's absence but now i know that i was the only one in his mind that night.

i was giggling to myself when someone knocked the door. i paused the song immediately.

it took a lot of effort to get up into a more presentable position so i don't look like i haven't seen the sun in years. i don't know why it happens, but whenever i feel motivated to change my life, i get sick.