Don't Listen In Secret || Joshua Hong

Fruit juice partner

i wiped my tears hastily before turning around. 

jihye : what are you doing here?

mingyu : you tell me.

jihye : go away and don't tell jeonghan

instead he proceeded to stand right beside me leaving only a little space between the two of us. 

mingyu : why are you crying?

jihye : i am not *sniffs* crying.

mingyu : dude you have been wailing for 5 minutes. stop lying. 

jihye : go away jeonghan's group member kim mingyu. you have no business with me.

mingyu : i won't leave you like this my group member's sister yoon jihye.

i tried to push him out but he didn't even budge.

mingyu : how long have you liked him for? 

my eyes widened at his question. i looked up at him with glossy eyes. no way. this can't be happening. 

jihye : wha- what?

mingyu : i know you like joshua

mingyu was so calm as he said those insane things. how can he be so nonchalant?

jihye : i don't 

mingyu : don't lie. my attention was on you all day. you are super obvious.

i gulped as i weighed my choices. should i accept or lie??

mingyu : okay don't tell me i will go ask jeonghan. 

he turned away and my hand caught his arm on their own. i was panicking so much. he turned towards me with a smirk. 

mingyu : spill 

jihye : i don't trust you

mingyu : come on cupcake i won't tell jeonghan 

jihye : your loyalty is with jeonghan not me. you will tell him 

mingyu : my loyalty is with whatever keeps you from crying. 

i was kind of touched by his words. but it seemed too dramatic since we aren't even friends. but since he was so nice i decided to trust mingyu.

i hope i don't regret this. 

jihye : i had a little crush on him... since i first met him. 

mingyu : and when was that?

jihye : 3 years ago. 

he gasped and i felt so embarrassed. mingyu must be thinking that i am so immature.

mingyu : so do you plan to keep crying over him? i mean you are pretty enough to date someone else.

jihye : no one has ever liked me though. 

i pouted and rested my head on my hands. mingyu was leaning on the railing sideways as he faced towards me. he had his hands inside his pocket and looked so carefree that no one would guess he was trying to talk a crying girl out of a helpless crush.

mingyu : i can't believe that. 

i looked over at him in confusion. 

mingyu : i am sure at least one person likes you. 

jihye : well he is a moron because he never told me that. 

in fact in all of my school life, no one ever liked me. i sometimes wonder that if joshua didn't think of me as a sister, will i meet his standards? 
probably not. yeri is so much better than me. 

mingyu : jeonghan hyung once said you are very innocent and never swear.

jihye : he really said that? i can't believe he said something nice about me. 

mingyu : he says a lot of nice things about you. but i can see not all of them are true. 

jihye : everyone swears sometimes it's not a big deal. 

mingyu : i am thirsty can i get a sip?

jihye : no

i tried to hide the can behind me but he snatched it away. i covered my face in shame as he drank it. i peeked from behind my hands to see mingyu's flustered face.

mingyu : this is definitely not fruit juice. seems like jeonghan hyung is the innocent one.

jihye : please don't tell him. he would feel so disappointed. i am not old enough to drink yet. 

mingyu : what do i get in return?

jihye : what can i give you i am just a student. i don't have money. 

i pouted sadly. he chuckled and sipped the drink again. 

mingyu : how about a kiss?

jihye : what? NO. do you want to die?

mingyu laughed innocently. 

mingyu : i am just checking how innocent you really are. how about you give me your number?

jihye : why should i give you my number? 

is this kim mingyu guy a pervert? should i scream? run away? kick him in the dic-

mingyu : won't it be better for you to have someone to talk to. it must feel suffocating to like someone you have no chance with. you can talk to me if you feel like crying again.

jihye : and what does that give you?

mingyu : it will save me from your ugly crying face. believe me that's worth billions.

jihye : it's not like you see me everyday. 

he scrunched his nose in disgust. 

mingyu : you speak too much. 

he gave me his phone and i typed my number in. i saw him save it as 'cupcake' with the corner of my eye. looks like he likes that name a lot. i hate it though.

i opened the crate again and retrieved 2 new cans. i offered one to mingyu and he accepted it with a smirk. 

mingyu : 100% fresh apple juice

he read the label and glared at me judgmentally. 

jihye : you want me to take it back?

mingyu : no i like fresh juice.

it does feel good to not drink alone. i gulped down a large volume of (not) juice at once. i could feel mingyu's eyes digging into the left side of my face.

jihye : do you like someone?

i could tell that i was getting tipsy. but i didn't want to stop myself. it felt good. the world was blurry. i didn't care about joshua.. i hate him.. i love him..

mingyu : probably.

i scoffed. and gulped the entire can down. 

jihye : you're worse than me. at least i know i like him. 

mingyu : do you like him a lot?

i nodded. my eyes were brimming with moisture again but i didn't care enough to stop the tears. 

jihye : so so much. i - i love him. i don't understand it. bu- but i love him.

mingyu : i don't understand what i feel about....

i couldn't make out his words before a deep slumber claimed me.