Don't Listen In Secret || Joshua Hong

brother's bestfriend

juhee : what's with that weird grin. 

jihye : i am happy.

juhee : again?

i gasped and furrowed my brows at her. i am happy because i feel free. from my feelings for joshua, from my endless self demeaning thoughts. and because i have got a new friend!

jihye : hey! what's that supposed to mean?

she stuffed more peanuts into her mouth. juhee is cuter than me. how dare she call me the cutest then?

juhee : you look like chucky when you smile like this.

jihye : how can you say that when you look like squidward?

i pouted and she laughed it off. my phone buzzed and i smiled when i saw who it was. it would be a lie if i said i wasn't waiting for him.

mingyu :)

hi cupcake 💩
my flight's in an hour
can i call you?

hi kim mingyu 🥔
it's my break time
call me

mingyu : hi friend

jihye : don't make me regret it.

mingyu : alright. hi jihye

jihye : that sounds better

i could hear mingyu scoff on the other side. he is so annoying and yet i love this feeling of getting annoyed. it somehow makes me feel less lonely and takes my mind off joshua, which is the best thing.

mingyu : so how are you now?

jihye : very good. what 'bout you, are you excited to go home?

mingyu : not really.

jihye : why? you didn't miss your family?

mingyu : i missed them but i will miss someone else more.

jihye : and i thought you were bitchless

mingyu : you should be the last person to joke about it.

hehe.... he just said i am much more hopelessly single.

that sucks.

jihye : will you miss me?

mingyu : it's time to board. i will go.

jihye : but-

mingyu : byee cupcake. love you.

he hung up before i could respond.

didn't he say he had an hour earlier?

i sometimes think mingyu likes me but he still acts like he used to before we became friends, he is always teasing and making fun of me and he has always said he sees me like a sister. so maybe i am reading too much into it.

when i came back home, jeonghan wasn't there. so naturally, i took out the limited edition ramen i was hiding for myself. i plugged in my earpods and played miroh by skz at a deafening volume. 

i couldn't help but hum and dance to the beat as i made the ramen, making sure to use a timer so that i don't overcook it into porridge again.

i don't remember the last time i felt this way.

but i feel light as a feather now. maybe my feelings for joshua were a lot heavier than i had ever realized. ever since i wrote that letter, i feel like i have found a compromise. i managed to get a happy ending in a story bound to be tragedy.

i hopped on the beat to the fridge to take out an egg. the song climaxed and i twirled around impulsively, suddenly i felt my feet lose touch of the ground, i closed my eyes shut as i lost balance and fell backwards.