Don't Listen In Secret || Joshua Hong

destined to be

joshua pov:

from the top of the hill, the city was like a grey ocean shining golden in the light of a setting sun. a soft breeze was blowing and i felt grateful that jihye was standing right beside me, her eyes glimmering with the orange light as she admired the view.

even though now i knew she was mine, i couldn't be calm until we talk and end all confusion once and for all. so i told her that i read her letter and she didn't meet my eyes for the last 15 minutes.

jihye: i liked you for more than 3 years. i deserve a lot of dates to make up for it.

i chuckled and nodded in agreement. she deserves all my love.

joshua: do you remember what i told you about my first love?

she looked at me from the corner of her eyes and i was having a lot of fun seeing how jealous she looked as soon as i said that.

jihye: what about her?

joshua: i fell in love with her 4 years ago and yet i could never forget her. first love is indeed special.

jihye: if you are trying to sympathize with me it isn't working.

joshua: you were my first love jihye

her eyes widened and she stared at me in disbelief. 

joshua: i fell for you first.

i told her everything that happened and she forgot to close her mouth as she listened taking it all in.

jihye: so we used to like each other before too. damn we have terrible luck.

i shook my head and took her hands in mine. she blushed as i placed a soft kiss on her knuckles. 

joshua: we tried to defy destiny but i guess we were meant to be together from the beginning.

her smile widened as we looked into each other's eyes. with relief that finally the long wait was over. now we no longer have to resist our heart. we are free from rules, free from boundaries. 

jihye: i would like to say something nice but i can't think of anything

i chuckled softly and she just hugged me instead of saying anything. she is still the same adorable girl yet so different. i guess that's what i love so much. she says true to her authentic personality no matter how much the world pressures her to change.

joshua: i want to start over by leaving everything that went wrong behind.

jihye: then let's change the genre from angst to fluff.

joshua: sure. but i won't mind some comedy. 

i saw jeonghan and scoups come out after finishing their meals and jeonghan teasing me last night came to my mind. 

joshua: tell me jihye who is the most special to you now?

jihye tilted her head in confusion but she still grinned brightly before pointing towards me. jeonghan rolled his eyes but i caught a hint of a smile on his face. 

seungcheol: should we go back now love birds?

jeonghan: or do you really want to fly down today?

jihye: is that a threat?

jeonghan: want to find out?

jeonghan showed a fake grin and jihye pouted at him teasing her. she hid behind me and i smirked at jeonghan before wrapping my hand around her shoulder.

i swear he cursed at me with those eyes.

jihye pov:

i completely forgot about the stupid bet but jeonghan and scoups wouldn't let us off the hook. i was so tired and yet there i was in the kitchen with joshua helping him cook dinner. 

he was making pasta and i was really amazed by how good he was at cooking while i struggled to chop the tomatoes. 

joshua: i will teach you

joshua came up from behind me and placed his hands over mine from behind. my heart was racing as he caged me between the counter and himself and i could feel his even heartbeat as his chest was pressed against my back. 

i was aware of what he was trying to do as his fingers glided along my arm like a feather while he tried to teach me how to hold the knife properly.

joshua: just relax

i shivered as i felt his warm breath on my neck and joshua rested his chin on my shoulder as if to tease me for it.

jihye: is that how people teach in cooking classes?

i turned my head towards him and my nose brushed against his. we were so close. even though we had kissed a few times it was still as exhilarating to feel my skin grow ultra sensitive at the proximity.

joshua: you are a special student

he removed his grip on my hand and circled his arms around my waist instead. i could only see his eyes and the fondness in them that had me mesmerized.

jihye: i have a knife in my hand hong joshua. proceed with caution.

joshua scrunched his nose playfully and tilted his head so our lips could align. he joined our lips and i felt a rush of bliss as we kissed even though my neck was straining. he broke the kiss just after a few seconds and i pouted but there was a glint of mischief in his eyes.

joshua: keep the knife down darling. i want to love you more.

i felt butterflies when he called me darling. i did as he said and then he tightened his hold on me, wrapping me from the back with his arms. i was getting giddy already but then he dug his face into the crook of my neck.

joshua: i love you so much jihye. what i feel for you can't be expressed in words.

goosebumps appeared on my skin as he whispered and then joshua pecked my cheek moving down to give soft kisses on my jaw and neck. the kisses were gentle and quick making my heart flutter every second. 

i felt so safe in his arms that it felt as if we could go on forever. we were both overwhelmed by longing. the need to be closer than physically possible and yet he didn't let the desire make him impatient. 

he kissed me with sensitivity and patience, healing all the scars with the beautiful touch that was filled with pure love and adoration.

i am so deep in love and i trust him with it.

A/N: 

i love happy endings <3

3 more chapters to go. i am happy happy happy :)

this chapter reminded me of my first book "till death do us part" which is a minghao ff. i wrote that book just because i wanted to write about pure love and it was so fun and emotional. T-T