Don't Listen In Secret || Joshua Hong

First Love

mom : are you really so determined to prove your uselessness?

jihye : I AM TRYING!

i pushed the couch with all my strength but it wasn't budging. i took a deep breath and tried again. it still didn't move.

jihye : i am not doing it. make your favorite child do this when he comes home.

mom : who makes their favorite kid work?

i pouted and rolled my eyes.

jihye : so you aren't even going to deny it?

mom : well he got us tickets to japan. so no.

jihye : japan?? are we going to japan?

i jumped in excitement.

mom : you aren't coming.

jihye : what??

mom : he only booked tickets for your dad and me. since it's our anniversary this week.

jihye : i thought we were going to have family time?

mom : no thanks. i'd rather go to mt. fuji.

jihye : mom that's so mean!

she laughed at my tantrums and i felt so annoyed. this isn't fair at all. why am i not going to japan ?

jihye : i am not pushing that boy's couch

i kicked the couch before running to my room. i didn't realize when i fell asleep while sulking but it was already evening when i woke up to someone smacking a pillow on my face. i shouted and sat up.

jeonghan : were you seeing good dreams?

jihye : WHY DID YOU HIT ME? i hate you!

i rubbed my eyes and as the sleepiness decreased i realized that jeonghan is back home. i gasped and looked at him with wide eyes. he was sitting on the side of my bed.

jihye : you are here? oh my god! JEONGHAN!

i threw my arms around him and he made a suffocated sound as if he was dying.

jeonghan : eww get away from me, you hate me anyway

i let go of him and frowned. perhaps i hate you isn't the best thing to say when your brother is back home after a long time. but i was sleepy. and that reminds me-

jihye : why am i not going to japan?

jeonghan : because i am not going either.

i rolled my eyes not satisfied with his answer. i was expecting jeonghan to smack my head or something but instead he interlocked our fingers.

jeonghan : do you remember why i let you call me by my name?

i nodded confused about why he is bringing that up all of a sudden.

of course i remember that day. 

our relationship changed a lot because of that one conversation.

it was just before their debut, when jeonghan came home to meet me. most of the time he acts like he doesn't like that i talk to him casually but in reality he was the one who initiated it.

it was more than 3 years ago, i was 16 and jeonghan told me that he was going to debut soon. he said we won't be able to meet that often anymore and he didn't want us to grow apart because of that. 

jeonghan asked me to talk casually to him so that we can forget our age difference and always be close no matter how far we are. 

we never mentioned that conversation again because i cried that day and it got too sentimental and embarrassing. i am actually surprised that such a subtle change in language changed our bond so much. he became a lot more approachable for me.