I'll Be Fine (pt. 2 of 2)

names to imaginary faces

funny how so many names have been mentioned
so many thoughts have been said
the context behind the people ive pointed out
unexplained, put simply
most names utterred in this saga are now out
if it was up to me, we would all be here
but it's up to you
up to each and every one of you
saga, ella, cat, mae, yves
you are very much gone, but not forgotten
of all of you, i have basic memories of face
as well as personality, if you call it that
that each of you have implemented into
this crematorium of remembrance
for what it's worth, you've made up a great part of my life
mae would be the biggest part by far
but while true, doesn't mean i remember some more
than i do others
all of you are equally relegated to being nothing more
than an event in my life
you're not human to me
you're all just things to have happened to me
and if you have a problem with that, cry
make yourself real, make yourself something
make yourself human in a capacity
that wasn't pretending to care about me.
as much as it is funny to see the caricatures of my mind
i recognize that these people don't care anymore
and i hope they've changed, atleast for the most part
because though they are passing events to me
i know they are roaming people to others
and for every moment spent on this horrid earth
they have more chance of having encountered new people
all in the goal of being a terrible person
and write it off as some of their quirks or misgivings
and as long as i can remember
these things have always had bad parts to them
they're walking contradictions of their so-called "morals"
but what do i know?
im just some silly trans girl just turned legal adult
that wants to get a ":3" or "OwO" tattoo
not only because of my past, but because of the image
and my delusions of wanting to be treated like a pet
like a catgirl or a puppygirl
guess i don't really know what im talking about, do i?